May 27, 2005 13:47
ok so its been awhile since i updated this, i have just been to lazy to actually log on and type, i know its not that hard. So it seems for every mistake i make something comes good of it, i know that doesnt happen often, but to clear up everything with (my ex) and i, she is still one of my best friends and always will be, we met almost a year ago, and it feels like i have known her forever, bit it just feels wierd dating her, she feels more of like a sister to me, and i could never feel the girlfriend type bond with her.
So katie and i started talking, a little bit ago, and tonight was probably the most amazing night of my life. Its been a long time if ever that i have felt the way i did when i kissed her. she really is amazing, "are you along for the ride"
I have some of the best friends ever, and i know that everybody says that, but i really do, it seems as of late that all my close friends are friends that i started talking to a little bit ago, with the occasional old school friends like laport, ben, and dustin. But when i look back its wierd cuz alot of my friends now are ones that are totally umm "newschool" lol. Like reed, dude that kid and i get along so goodd, you would of never guessed that we really didnt talk alot in like elementary/middle school, we started getting tight when we started HV but before that we only talked occasionally. Now that kid is like my brother, and his family is like mine now. Its wierd.
So i moved in with my dad, and i have been moved out for a couple weeks, and i have to say it's great being able to just chill and have fun with friends there is so much more to do at my dads then at my mom's only cuz its in the middle of nowhere. To tell you the truth im really not scared at all about living at my dads cuz its been great, its just kinda wierd not having 2 deal with my lil bro's and sisters all the time. Its wierd cuz when i walk into the door my little brother comes up to me and hugs me and screams my name, something that i always wished he would do, every day i got home from school. Its wierd how that happens. I dont know, i am more nervous about leaving the home that i have been in for the past 4 years. When i first moved to Attica i was just as stereotypical as everyone else. But alot of the kids are just like everyone else, minus a few. Regardless though, many of my best friends are there, and i will miss them alot, its just hard having to pick one or the other, Reed once told me in a situation take a pen and paper, and write the Pros and Cons of both situations, and see what turns out better. Its gonna be a long summer of thinking, and it may come down to some paper and a pen.
Back to katie tho, i cannot stop thinking about this girl. She is amazing, i really wish i could just lay and talk with her all night. And just kiss her. she is beautiful!
I reallly really feel a strong connection already which hasnt happened like ever!
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