haven't talked to him....
so i haven't talked to craig in like two days. this is the longest that we've gone without talking to each other in like two months or even longer i can't remember. it's weird but also it's good. i know that i have to let go of him, it's really hard. you always are attached to the person you lose your virginity to, there is always that special place. a part of me just wishes that i could let go and apart of me wants to hold him close and look into those BEAUTIFUL blue eyes all night. i'm torn and it is only hurting me, well i think he's a little bit upset (okay i KNOW that he's miserable), but being torn is only hurting me. i wish that i never had to hurt him, if i just had kept to my plan of dating when he got his life together we wouldn't be in this position right now, but damn those eyes and those lips URGHHH BOYS SUCK! also if he wasn't so damn good in bed hehehe. i'm horrible!
40 more minutes until american idol GOOD LUCK CARRIE (she's in sigma sigma sigma how awesome is that).
post later.
amj
40 more minutes until american idol GOOD LUCK CARRIE (she's in sigma sigma sigma how awesome is that).
post later.
amj