What the hell is my deal?

[amiurnething24]

I don't know what the hell my problem is. I mean, everythings great. I'm in love. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend. Sex is great. And yet I still want to slit my wrists. I don't get it. Me and Typhani get into it heavy today. Our friendship is over. She felt the need to once again tell me John has a problem with dating bi girls. And... umm... HELLO? I am! He doesn't seem to be complaining about it. He just doesn't appreciate the scapegoat excuse for cheating on him with a girl. "Ohh well I'm bi so it's okay. It's not cheating." And it is. You know I do feel kinda bad for her tho because he never really loved her. Damn shame huh? I also don't get why, of all people, she chooses me to bitch to about how much she hates him. One: I already know for Christ's sake! Two: I'm his girlfriend... who loves him... Here recently I've been kinda paranoid about his safety and especially in a car. Do you know what that bitch of all things said? "I hope he dies in a fucking carwreck!" That is fucked up, yet I still can't say I hate her. Just like that ass Warren. Oh and Warren by the way... I LAUGH at your little theory that I'm still in love with you. It's like your jealous. Way too cute! LMAO! I found love so GET OVER IT! But Thank you to all the people I've ever known. You ass holes and my crazy bffs that I love so dearly. Without all of you I wouldn't be where I am today (good or bad? not sure). I just need some pills, Smirknoff Vodka, and John forever and I should be set. But I'm still so depressed and I don't know why. Reguardless of who you are, if you can help me, please do. I need all I can get. Well here soon I'll try to sleep a few minutes. If I can. As Always I love you all. Later. Your Queen Gothic Faerie Gypsy,
The Cherrie-less Cheesecake