Tell me.... AM I YOUR ANYTHING???

[amiurnething24]

Hello Everyone! Well, I just got back from a 5 1/2 days at highland. I can't believe that everyone was glad I left! What happened to all those people who said they'd always be there? The ones who care so much if I kill myself or not? The ones who would do anything in the world for me? The ones who want nothing more than me to be happy? Did I all of a sudden become less than you? Are you too good for me now? Do you want to cause me pain? I thought about you all EVERY DAY I WAS THERE!!! Now suddenly, I'm all alone... AGAIN!!! I should have known better than to believe that I had real friends. Not only am I alone, I have always been alone, and will always be alone! As soon as I get out of Highland and get over my suicidal feelings, I find out I really DON'T have anything to live for! All I have is John and sometimes I wonder if I'm good enough for him! Probably not! But he loves me anyway! I just wish that anyone who reads this, who is disgusted with me as it seems, to leave me alone then for good! If you don't wanna be around me or you wanna tell me how to live, THEN LEAVE ME ALONE!!! YOU NEVER REALLY KNEW ME ANYWAY!!! If you care still, please tell me because I don't believe anyone still does. I'm gonna go curl up and die now.
I do still love you all.
Chelsea Leeanna