I've been addicted to you.

[amitythepenguin]

I love having my roommates, but this summer has turned out to be a disaster. Sure, we party every night since we;ve got our own place, but I can hardly afford my bills. Daniel and I... well we barely talk anymore. I talk to him like maybe one or two days out of the week. Which makes me sad because I saw it coming. But I've gotten to the point where I'm pretty sure I have an alcohol problem. And a drug addiction. And a smoking addiction. I don't like myself right now. I am sick of trying to have boyfriends. I always end up hurt in one way or another - this isn't pity me or anything. I just need a place to vent. Lately I haven't been myself. I don't want to be around anyone. I don't want to see anyone. I want to be by myself listening to James Blunt. I just feel... empty. Or dried out. Just like someone sucked the life out of me - the sad thing is I know who did it. I really don't want Daniel and I to break up but I'm afraid it will come to that sooner or later because we never talk and we never see each other. I'm just a little lost and dried up right now. So far I don't know what to do with my life. I don't know what to do with the world. I don't know what to think of heartbreak of love of lust of pain of joy. Let's play our game beneath the stars and hope our dreams come true.

I am too weak to be your cure.