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My God. I can't stand this. I am so STUPID and I have this horrible HEADACHE and it won't go away and I feel like I'm going to DIE. I want almost all my friends except for the cool ones to go away to somewhere 1000 miles away from me. I want to forget my life. Like in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I want to forget the people that I can't stand to remember anymore. I want to go and I want to see Joey and kiss him even though no one wants me to. And I want to roll around with Blake because I like him and he's beautiful and no one wants me to do anything with him because he is too old for me. I want to go around and flirt with all the boys who hate me or with the boys that say they "don't like me that way" and I want to slap my mother and I want to stomp on my father's foot. I want to break Ms. Parkhurst's neck and I want to fly to Minnesota and see Ryu and Matt and make out with them both, and when I'm done, I'll fly back to Florida and shoot my principal in the head for giving us lame rules. I'll slash Maggie's body to pieces and pin each piece to a locker and write underneath the piece- "FAT WHORE". Then I'll take a Dasani and I'll guzzle it down and then I'll kill myself.