What is this funny feeling?

Aug 30, 2011 21:18

I went to a party tonight. I don't know why I did it, except I was bored and a little bit lonely. God, that sounds so pathetic.

Anyway, I ended up finding Gretchen there making out with a chick who looked so much like me that it was downright creepy. So I felt even worse, and I hurried to get away. Ugh... I still feel weird, just thinking about it.   It's seriously making me consider switching schools.

Some guy was talking to me, and he was actually really good looking, but I couldn't stop thinking about Sam. I can't stop thinking about Sam.  The guy asked me to come back to his dorm but... I just couldn't.  How crazy is that?  I'm single, what harm would it have caused to go up to his room and make out?    But I couldn't.  My mind kept coming back to Sam.

His voice- I swear to God, it's like music to my ears.  I think it's my new life goal to make him laugh.

So yeah, I could be in some dorm room with a hot guy, but I came back here alone, because of Sam.  I'm not with Sam.  Can I even say we're friends?  I've told him things I've never told anyone.  But, I don't even know what he looks like.  I know he's tall.  But then everyone is tall to me, right?

This bed is so big and empty.  Why'd I get a queen, again?  I guess I'll just lay here and think about Sam until I fall asleep.  Like I've been doing every night since we started talking more.

Shit, he can't read this, can he?

what: penpal!verse, where: arlington, who: sam winchester (gotcloset_45), what: journal post, who: claire bennet, what: log

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