bah.
I should really be studying right now, but I don't feel like it, so I will write something, and then get back to studying.
I am going to be so utterly jaded if and when this relationship with Courtney doesn't work out. Right now, I am naive, because this is my first real relationship. I have the unrealistic notion that love is enough, when I know that it isn't. Our society is filled with evidence of this. Look anywhere, couples break up all the time. They love each other, but really, life is too big of a bitch. Why do people even get into relationships? If I had had a relationship like this before and it ended, I would be such a hater of relationships, because how do people do it. It would kill me on the inside to know that my ex was off screwing someone else, or just moving on without me. And why shouldn't exes do that? Usually, you want them to be happy, but wtf, life sure likes throwing shit in our faces.
Yes, I am a complete killjoy. And I haven't even been jaded yet. But really, why the fuck do people put themselves in these positions. Time after time, people get into relationships, often for years, and they break up, have their hearts shattered, and are still able to move on. The chances of finding a relationship that will last indefinitely is so low, but yet we gamble with our hearts. Why are we as humans so stupid? Yes. I know. We do it because we feel so wonderful when we're with someone, and we have hope and faith that someone that will last will come along, and maybe its enough, just maybe that the possibility of happiness can heal our over-and-over again broken, shattered hearts.
/end killjoy
I am going to be so utterly jaded if and when this relationship with Courtney doesn't work out. Right now, I am naive, because this is my first real relationship. I have the unrealistic notion that love is enough, when I know that it isn't. Our society is filled with evidence of this. Look anywhere, couples break up all the time. They love each other, but really, life is too big of a bitch. Why do people even get into relationships? If I had had a relationship like this before and it ended, I would be such a hater of relationships, because how do people do it. It would kill me on the inside to know that my ex was off screwing someone else, or just moving on without me. And why shouldn't exes do that? Usually, you want them to be happy, but wtf, life sure likes throwing shit in our faces.
Yes, I am a complete killjoy. And I haven't even been jaded yet. But really, why the fuck do people put themselves in these positions. Time after time, people get into relationships, often for years, and they break up, have their hearts shattered, and are still able to move on. The chances of finding a relationship that will last indefinitely is so low, but yet we gamble with our hearts. Why are we as humans so stupid? Yes. I know. We do it because we feel so wonderful when we're with someone, and we have hope and faith that someone that will last will come along, and maybe its enough, just maybe that the possibility of happiness can heal our over-and-over again broken, shattered hearts.
/end killjoy