stuff
well first off, happy chinese new year, this year is the year of the rooster/cock.
now onto updates for the past week;
i didnt make it through the job training, when i started t otake calls, i felt too much pressure/stress, so during the "final" i froze, which caused me to fail. the good news though is that will passed, so now he's a member of the grand design of society, whom spends numerous pointless hours to get money, just to live how we want to.
so now im unimployeed, but i think maybe it's good, cuz during the 2 weeks that will and i were both "working" we had no time to really do what had to be done at home, like laundry, and what not. also it gives me some time to be alone, so maybe i can now sort out the spiderwebs and spam that have seeped into my mind, now i can sort out what is important to me, who i've become, and what i want to be. i dont want this to sound like it's a soap, but it's what is needed. i feel like i've lost what has made me, me, i've lost what i knew, and i need to find it, what ever it is. i also need to find out what i really want to do or "to be, when i grow up" to coin the phrase of old times. should i continue, or start over in computers, should i start over with art, or is there something else that i'm supposed to be that hasn't shown itself to me?
as of right now i'm certain of a few things
i like role playing
i like fixing computers
i like drawing
i don't like children, or idiots
i don't like messes
i don't like to be fake to people
things i would like to learn/do:
learn japanese langauge-written and spoken
learn chinese>manderin> at least spoken
become a "powerful" wicca/pagan
learn more tae kwon do> at least purple
if anyone has any comments on how i can go about to do this, please feel free to comment.
now onto updates for the past week;
i didnt make it through the job training, when i started t otake calls, i felt too much pressure/stress, so during the "final" i froze, which caused me to fail. the good news though is that will passed, so now he's a member of the grand design of society, whom spends numerous pointless hours to get money, just to live how we want to.
so now im unimployeed, but i think maybe it's good, cuz during the 2 weeks that will and i were both "working" we had no time to really do what had to be done at home, like laundry, and what not. also it gives me some time to be alone, so maybe i can now sort out the spiderwebs and spam that have seeped into my mind, now i can sort out what is important to me, who i've become, and what i want to be. i dont want this to sound like it's a soap, but it's what is needed. i feel like i've lost what has made me, me, i've lost what i knew, and i need to find it, what ever it is. i also need to find out what i really want to do or "to be, when i grow up" to coin the phrase of old times. should i continue, or start over in computers, should i start over with art, or is there something else that i'm supposed to be that hasn't shown itself to me?
as of right now i'm certain of a few things
i like role playing
i like fixing computers
i like drawing
i don't like children, or idiots
i don't like messes
i don't like to be fake to people
things i would like to learn/do:
learn japanese langauge-written and spoken
learn chinese>manderin> at least spoken
become a "powerful" wicca/pagan
learn more tae kwon do> at least purple
if anyone has any comments on how i can go about to do this, please feel free to comment.