Just so we have an understanding.
Before you read this: know that the only reason this is posted is out of shear neccessity, and I ask that no one but Nick read or comment on it.
It was placed before me, last night, that apparently, my journal is nothing more than the melodramatic rant of an immature teenager soaked up in pathetic self pity.
Apparently, my motives for a journal were mistaken.
So now I wish to make everything known to you, my dear readers.
Life has no applicable place for melodrama. I know this, as hopefully, you do as well. That is the purpose of such a thing as Livejournal. It is only on the pages of this electronic marvel that I can offer the purest, unpolished, and most selfindulgent of all my thoughts. This is the only place where I trully get to whine. Why? Because none of it matters. In a year I will have forgotten my password and everything else and this Livejournal will be nothing more than a faint memory in the vaults of my teenage years.
To Nick- My friend, it has been a long and annoying struggle over the past week or however long it has been. But I thought about what I want: as petty as it may sound, I want an apology. As your friend, I have always been there for you, whether I believed in the validity of your problems or not, and I only expected you to do the same for me. I understand why you neglected to tell me things, and although it does hurt that you no longer wish to confide in me, I am just going to have to suck it up and get over it. Maybe, I will earn your respect again someday. Who knows? I hope so.
But the fact is: I came to you as a friend, and you turned me away with a total lack of compassion, something you have spent that past 2 years beating into me, only to miss it altogether when it's time for you to step up to the plate.
I'm sorry for what I said about you loving me.
You said you meant it and I believe you.
You are my best friend, and will be until the time that you choose to end it. I never will. You taught me to have far too much faith in friendship for any of that nonsense.
It was placed before me, last night, that apparently, my journal is nothing more than the melodramatic rant of an immature teenager soaked up in pathetic self pity.
Apparently, my motives for a journal were mistaken.
So now I wish to make everything known to you, my dear readers.
Life has no applicable place for melodrama. I know this, as hopefully, you do as well. That is the purpose of such a thing as Livejournal. It is only on the pages of this electronic marvel that I can offer the purest, unpolished, and most selfindulgent of all my thoughts. This is the only place where I trully get to whine. Why? Because none of it matters. In a year I will have forgotten my password and everything else and this Livejournal will be nothing more than a faint memory in the vaults of my teenage years.
To Nick- My friend, it has been a long and annoying struggle over the past week or however long it has been. But I thought about what I want: as petty as it may sound, I want an apology. As your friend, I have always been there for you, whether I believed in the validity of your problems or not, and I only expected you to do the same for me. I understand why you neglected to tell me things, and although it does hurt that you no longer wish to confide in me, I am just going to have to suck it up and get over it. Maybe, I will earn your respect again someday. Who knows? I hope so.
But the fact is: I came to you as a friend, and you turned me away with a total lack of compassion, something you have spent that past 2 years beating into me, only to miss it altogether when it's time for you to step up to the plate.
I'm sorry for what I said about you loving me.
You said you meant it and I believe you.
You are my best friend, and will be until the time that you choose to end it. I never will. You taught me to have far too much faith in friendship for any of that nonsense.