It's been an eternity
I have been living over at that other social network site for the majority of the time.
Life has gone on - I have evolved again thankfully, several layers have sloughed off in hopes of another new improved me.
Thailand has taught me to be lonely - no-one wants to be lonely - we strive to find companionship at any level we can - but if we delve into loneliness we find inner reserves, the okayness of solitude and the ability to find joy in sorrow. The love I have wanted to find here did not appear magically, no knights on white stallions ready to sweep me off my feet - yet again the hardest lesson is to learn to be on your own. The love I have found has been in feeling like I am doing the right thing - teaching - the reflection of love and learning in a child's eyes - the sheer anger created by a tiny human, the frustration and the elation.
Travelling has seen me here in Thailand, not outside the country - the money here is like water - you have it and it is gone again - great place if you are a tourist (and I encourage everyone to visit Thailand at least once!) BUT....
I have prayed in temples, swam in the Gulf of Siam, walked numerous beaches, spoken in foreign languages, drank too much beer, sweated out chili, consumed BBQ squid, fish and prawns with my hand like they were the finest delicacies on the face of the earth, I have learnt the serene ability of the neutral face whilst seething inside..
It's time to move on - I am not willing to accept somethings that have come to pass in Thailand - there are things in my life that I want to change - some may call this move I am making radical - I call it Ghana.
Life has gone on - I have evolved again thankfully, several layers have sloughed off in hopes of another new improved me.
Thailand has taught me to be lonely - no-one wants to be lonely - we strive to find companionship at any level we can - but if we delve into loneliness we find inner reserves, the okayness of solitude and the ability to find joy in sorrow. The love I have wanted to find here did not appear magically, no knights on white stallions ready to sweep me off my feet - yet again the hardest lesson is to learn to be on your own. The love I have found has been in feeling like I am doing the right thing - teaching - the reflection of love and learning in a child's eyes - the sheer anger created by a tiny human, the frustration and the elation.
Travelling has seen me here in Thailand, not outside the country - the money here is like water - you have it and it is gone again - great place if you are a tourist (and I encourage everyone to visit Thailand at least once!) BUT....
I have prayed in temples, swam in the Gulf of Siam, walked numerous beaches, spoken in foreign languages, drank too much beer, sweated out chili, consumed BBQ squid, fish and prawns with my hand like they were the finest delicacies on the face of the earth, I have learnt the serene ability of the neutral face whilst seething inside..
It's time to move on - I am not willing to accept somethings that have come to pass in Thailand - there are things in my life that I want to change - some may call this move I am making radical - I call it Ghana.