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I'm bored
I've had a month with stuff to do
and now it's done
no more casual fridays
with all this extra work I only made 80 dollars extra...the rest replaced the money I would have made during spring break...I wish I could have worked more...
my mom lost her job...and I lied to her about costa rica...but it had to be done...the timing is just not right....I hate lying and the helpless feeling that I seem to be fighting everyday...I feel like everyone knows me to well...and may feel sorry for me...which is one thing I never wanted...the main reason I have usually kept most stuff to myself...but the one person who does know everything about me(beth and a few other people are pretty close to it) doesn't....so maybe my theory is wrong..I've lost my train of thought in all of that
you ever have the feeling that someone will get to know everything about you...and then regret it...cause you are just to much
have no idea where I'm gonna live next year...and I feel the process is not going to be a smooth one....I'm not gonna be happy with it...but I'll hold it in...
I'm just tired of moving
my whole life has been a move
and most the time it's not even far from where I started
so I'm really getting nowhere
I just want something nice
something that can feel like a home
with a plant
and carpet..a soft carpet that I could fall asleep on
space
and to be clean
but that won't happen...
and I know I say this every time...but I do need to start sewing...I need to buy some material...and hopefully have stuff to show later...I mean people are selling their stuff for like 80 bucks on-line...so that's what I will do with my fridays from now on...
I need to go to the mall...that somehow always calms me down :p
I've had a month with stuff to do
and now it's done
no more casual fridays
with all this extra work I only made 80 dollars extra...the rest replaced the money I would have made during spring break...I wish I could have worked more...
my mom lost her job...and I lied to her about costa rica...but it had to be done...the timing is just not right....I hate lying and the helpless feeling that I seem to be fighting everyday...I feel like everyone knows me to well...and may feel sorry for me...which is one thing I never wanted...the main reason I have usually kept most stuff to myself...but the one person who does know everything about me(beth and a few other people are pretty close to it) doesn't....so maybe my theory is wrong..I've lost my train of thought in all of that
you ever have the feeling that someone will get to know everything about you...and then regret it...cause you are just to much
have no idea where I'm gonna live next year...and I feel the process is not going to be a smooth one....I'm not gonna be happy with it...but I'll hold it in...
I'm just tired of moving
my whole life has been a move
and most the time it's not even far from where I started
so I'm really getting nowhere
I just want something nice
something that can feel like a home
with a plant
and carpet..a soft carpet that I could fall asleep on
space
and to be clean
but that won't happen...
and I know I say this every time...but I do need to start sewing...I need to buy some material...and hopefully have stuff to show later...I mean people are selling their stuff for like 80 bucks on-line...so that's what I will do with my fridays from now on...
I need to go to the mall...that somehow always calms me down :p