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why are holidays so depressing?
I think I expect to much...or just something
I mean I love my family...I love being around them...but at the same time I hate it there
its just weird...cause I love the decorations...the whole idea behind it...and nothing...I feel nothing...and if something worse...
I go home and I hear what I don't want to.....I have to be something for them that I don't want to be...I mean I want to be the strong person for them...but its tiring....and I can't...and it frustrates me that I can't....I can't do anything
I don't know what I want....I want to much
I think I expect to much...or just something
I mean I love my family...I love being around them...but at the same time I hate it there
its just weird...cause I love the decorations...the whole idea behind it...and nothing...I feel nothing...and if something worse...
I go home and I hear what I don't want to.....I have to be something for them that I don't want to be...I mean I want to be the strong person for them...but its tiring....and I can't...and it frustrates me that I can't....I can't do anything
I don't know what I want....I want to much