sad girl
i've been so sad today. i thought it was just hormones, but i realized tonight that i really miss paul. he's up in subic and i'm on maternity leave here in manila. my days have been filled with errand running, and tomorrow i will find myself with all my errands done.
so i guess i'll just wait to go into labor.
it was my mother-in-law's birthday today and i went to dinner with the whole family... needless to say, it was torture. i felt so beat-up by the end of the night. i had to endure being told that our hospital choice was not a good one, served shrimps (i'm allergic), told i had to go to lipa, batangas on sunday (hello! i could go into labo at any time!), questioned about the baby's name, THEN my mother-in-law goes into a slew of miscarriage stories. not just ANY kind of miscarriage stories, but she told me all about a woman who'd been waiting to go into labor when her baby died in the womb. later on in the evening, when my little boy started kicking, i didn't let her put her hand on my belly.
after dinner, they all wanted to go off for dessert. i know it was self-pity at that point, but i really wish they'd picked a place that had SOME kind of sugar-free item on their menu.
i really miss paul, i need him to take care of me.
so i guess i'll just wait to go into labor.
it was my mother-in-law's birthday today and i went to dinner with the whole family... needless to say, it was torture. i felt so beat-up by the end of the night. i had to endure being told that our hospital choice was not a good one, served shrimps (i'm allergic), told i had to go to lipa, batangas on sunday (hello! i could go into labo at any time!), questioned about the baby's name, THEN my mother-in-law goes into a slew of miscarriage stories. not just ANY kind of miscarriage stories, but she told me all about a woman who'd been waiting to go into labor when her baby died in the womb. later on in the evening, when my little boy started kicking, i didn't let her put her hand on my belly.
after dinner, they all wanted to go off for dessert. i know it was self-pity at that point, but i really wish they'd picked a place that had SOME kind of sugar-free item on their menu.
i really miss paul, i need him to take care of me.