So sad...Never hold anything back
[ [ 10th Grade ] ]
When I sat there in my class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so-called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she were mine. But she didn`t notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before. I handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn`t want to be just friends. I loved her, but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why.
[ [ 11th Grade ] ]
The phone rang. On the other end, it was she. She was in tears. She talked about how her love had broken. She asked me to be with her because she didn`t want to be alone, so I did. When I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she were mine. But she didn`t notice me like that, and I knew it. After 2 hours, after one Drew Barrymore movie, and after 3 bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn`t want to be just friends. I loved her, but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why.
[ [ Senior Year ] ]
On one date, she walked to my house, and said: "My date is sick. He`s not going to show up." Well, I didn`t have a date either, and in 10th grade, we made a promise that if both of us didn`t have dates, we would go together, just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her when she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t think of me like that, and I knew it. Then she said, "I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn`t want to be just friends. I loved her, but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why. A day passed, then a week, then a month, before I could blink. It was graduation day. I watched her, the little angel of mine. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me and cried when I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "You`re my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn`t want to be just friends. I loved her, but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why. Now I sit in the pews of church. That girl is getting married, getting married now. I watch her, say "I do" and drive off to her new life. I can’t believe she’s married to another man. I want her to be mine, but she doesn`t see me like that, and I know it. But before she drove away she came to me andsaid, "you came". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don`t want to be just friends. I love her, but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why.
[ [ Years Passed…]]
Last week I attended the funeral of the girl who used to be my “best friend”. She had moved away from my state and we didn`t talk anymore, but that didn`t make losing her any less jarring. She had died in a car accident sliding off an icy road into an embankment. Her mother approached me at her viewing and said, “I want you to have this. She would have wanted you to have it.” She handed me 5 pages copied from her diary. Here is what she wrote on May 11th of our senior year in high school: I stare at him wishing we were together, but he doesn`t think of me as anything but a friend. I want to tell him that I want to be more than friends, but I could never do that. I dream at night that he`s telling me he`s in love with me.
So here were 2 people who loved each other deeply, but neither would risk the hurt to reveal themselves.
No regrets.. There's No turning back..
If you love someone, say it... Don't make the same mistake
When I sat there in my class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so-called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she were mine. But she didn`t notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before. I handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn`t want to be just friends. I loved her, but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why.
[ [ 11th Grade ] ]
The phone rang. On the other end, it was she. She was in tears. She talked about how her love had broken. She asked me to be with her because she didn`t want to be alone, so I did. When I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she were mine. But she didn`t notice me like that, and I knew it. After 2 hours, after one Drew Barrymore movie, and after 3 bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn`t want to be just friends. I loved her, but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why.
[ [ Senior Year ] ]
On one date, she walked to my house, and said: "My date is sick. He`s not going to show up." Well, I didn`t have a date either, and in 10th grade, we made a promise that if both of us didn`t have dates, we would go together, just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her when she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t think of me like that, and I knew it. Then she said, "I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn`t want to be just friends. I loved her, but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why. A day passed, then a week, then a month, before I could blink. It was graduation day. I watched her, the little angel of mine. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me and cried when I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "You`re my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I didn`t want to be just friends. I loved her, but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why. Now I sit in the pews of church. That girl is getting married, getting married now. I watch her, say "I do" and drive off to her new life. I can’t believe she’s married to another man. I want her to be mine, but she doesn`t see me like that, and I know it. But before she drove away she came to me andsaid, "you came". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don`t want to be just friends. I love her, but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why.
[ [ Years Passed…]]
Last week I attended the funeral of the girl who used to be my “best friend”. She had moved away from my state and we didn`t talk anymore, but that didn`t make losing her any less jarring. She had died in a car accident sliding off an icy road into an embankment. Her mother approached me at her viewing and said, “I want you to have this. She would have wanted you to have it.” She handed me 5 pages copied from her diary. Here is what she wrote on May 11th of our senior year in high school: I stare at him wishing we were together, but he doesn`t think of me as anything but a friend. I want to tell him that I want to be more than friends, but I could never do that. I dream at night that he`s telling me he`s in love with me.
So here were 2 people who loved each other deeply, but neither would risk the hurt to reveal themselves.
No regrets.. There's No turning back..
If you love someone, say it... Don't make the same mistake