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I really miss high school. Like, not necessarily high school, but I miss people that I used to have good relationships with around junior year. I miss people that I don't talk to anymore. I miss people that took me off their friends list. I remember making plans to go to Against Me! shows with a couple people - whose names I won't mention, just for the sheer fact that we can never really be friends again - and I miss that. I miss trying to get them to take one of their parents' cars to come see me. I miss talking to them. I miss Disney trips. I miss the fucking random shit they'd say and how funny it would be just becuase they said it. I miss those two girls like no other, and we were never even terribly close. Tilly and the Wall is coming up and it totally reminds me of her. Ugh.
I also miss people like Linda and Deanna and ASHLEY and our sleepovers and pictures and thrifting and shows and me trying to get them to go and all our senior skip days and the lake and being close enough to everyone to be like "hey come over." I miss all our talks and laughs and smiles and our revolution and I miss everything. Hell, I even miss Swan. I miss going to his house every day and I miss eating dinner with his family and I miss his mom and his dad and I miss watching Nip/Tuck with him and whatever. I still don't know if we could ever be friends, but I miss that kind of security high school offered.
I really effing like this boy. A LOT. I haven't stopped smiling for the past week and it's making a difference. I can be walking down the hall at school and just start smiling. All we dd today in ethics was meditate and we were supposed to be calm and happy and I swear, he's all I can think about. This is so bad. But I really like being a happy person. Ugh. And he came into work to see me today. Well, sort of, but he came in and we talked for a little bit and whatever. I'm so distracted. Distracted - that's a good word.
I also miss people like Linda and Deanna and ASHLEY and our sleepovers and pictures and thrifting and shows and me trying to get them to go and all our senior skip days and the lake and being close enough to everyone to be like "hey come over." I miss all our talks and laughs and smiles and our revolution and I miss everything. Hell, I even miss Swan. I miss going to his house every day and I miss eating dinner with his family and I miss his mom and his dad and I miss watching Nip/Tuck with him and whatever. I still don't know if we could ever be friends, but I miss that kind of security high school offered.
I really effing like this boy. A LOT. I haven't stopped smiling for the past week and it's making a difference. I can be walking down the hall at school and just start smiling. All we dd today in ethics was meditate and we were supposed to be calm and happy and I swear, he's all I can think about. This is so bad. But I really like being a happy person. Ugh. And he came into work to see me today. Well, sort of, but he came in and we talked for a little bit and whatever. I'm so distracted. Distracted - that's a good word.