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As of this moment, I guess you can say I'm a little bit of an emotional mess.
I seriously can't believe it. 18 in two days. College bound and moving to a new city. I seriously love new beginnings, but this is a different story. Full ride scholarship and I for some odd reason I feel like... in a few months I'll be running on this treadmill and it'll keep getting faster and faster... then BAM! Helllooo, wake up call. I spent this weekend at my new house in Maricopa City, and might I say... I absolutely love my new house, but hate the place. It's so small and far from everything else. I feel like I'm back in Misawa, Japan again with the bullshit... only the American desert version. I don't appreciate the fact that I once again, have found myself in Butt Fuck Egypt. I'll have, at the most, a year before I'm off to my own appt or the dorms.
Touching another subject...
I spent this weekend getting a glimpse of Geoff's "crowd." I partied with him and his friends, instead of the "usual." I met a lot of his fam visiting from NY. I was so nervous and super uneasy about the whole situation. Family acceptance is always a thing with me. I mean, prior to meeting them, I was coming up with reasons as to why they wouldn't like me.. and then just figured I could always play the "because I'm asian" card. BUT, it's all good, they ended up being great people! I was soo down to drink by the pool with his folks. All in all, I feel like I got to know him a bit more.
Also, I need to stop reminiscing so much. This tendency has got to cut back or SOMETHING because I've passed the point where it's mentally unhealthy. haha