for what it's worth; nichkhun-centric
for what it's worth.
nichkhun-centric, GEN ; pg; 488w
sometimes nichkhun asks himself if this is worth it.
A/N: unbetaed and lapslocked because i'm actually meant to be studying for my korean exam tomorrow. eep. and middle of this sounds awkward but i dont know what else i can do with this. LOL.
sometimes nichkhun asks himself if this is worth it. if it is worth having little to no sleep everyday. if it worth being controlled on every single thing he does. if it worth being scrutinized for every single little things he does right or wrong according to the public eye.
he misses the days he was able to make decisions for himself, misses the days he could openly show affection to others without being afraid that his face is going to be splashed all over the newspaper the next day, with headlines that might jeopardize not only his future, but also five others.
but it only takes one look at each of his member for nichkhun to realize something.
one look at chansung’s blinking eyes, orbs trying so hard to focus on the mirror, nichkhun knows that look, it only appears when their maknae is so tired and hungry that everything looks blurry to him.
one look at junho's knitted brows and eyes that is full of determination to improve, even when nichkhun doesn't know what else junho could improve on, because that boy is just dripping with talent.
one look at wooyoung's sweat trickling down his neck as he repeat their dance steps for nichkhun, because even if wooyoung has perfected his, nichkhun is still having difficulty perfecting his.
one look at taecyeon's bright smile despite his really tired eyes threatening to close any minute, his giant long limbs flailing all over the place without any sense of rhythm, missing beats here there and everywhere.
one look at junsu’s frustration as his voice keeps cracking, but he tries his adlib again and again, even if everyone knows that the main problem isn’t that he is not capable, but it’s because his voice has been overused.
one look at how far they have gotten up to.
all this, moments of practicing till dawn breaks in a damp practice room that smells like sweat, moments of frustration of not getting choreography right after what seems like the millionth try, moments where they simply could not say anything coherent to each other because they are too exhausted to even open their mouth, these are moments that nichkhun wouldn't exchange for what it's worth, because having five other amazing people to share all this with, is worth more than anything he could ever wish for.
as their hands stacks on top of each other, nichkhun doesn’t know if it’s the heat of all of them combined or if its something else, but he feels an exhilarating rush of energy filling up his entire being, and his tiredness washes away just like that. the tired faces around him are starting to break out into a thin smile as they shouted together,
"dont. stop. cant. stop. two p m. go."
there’s nowhere else to go, nichkhun says to himself, there’s nowhere else to go but up.
♥
A/N: thanks for readingggg my lovelies :DDD and now i have to fulfill some student duties. kkk.
nichkhun-centric, GEN ; pg; 488w
sometimes nichkhun asks himself if this is worth it.
A/N: unbetaed and lapslocked because i'm actually meant to be studying for my korean exam tomorrow. eep. and middle of this sounds awkward but i dont know what else i can do with this. LOL.
sometimes nichkhun asks himself if this is worth it. if it is worth having little to no sleep everyday. if it worth being controlled on every single thing he does. if it worth being scrutinized for every single little things he does right or wrong according to the public eye.
he misses the days he was able to make decisions for himself, misses the days he could openly show affection to others without being afraid that his face is going to be splashed all over the newspaper the next day, with headlines that might jeopardize not only his future, but also five others.
but it only takes one look at each of his member for nichkhun to realize something.
one look at chansung’s blinking eyes, orbs trying so hard to focus on the mirror, nichkhun knows that look, it only appears when their maknae is so tired and hungry that everything looks blurry to him.
one look at junho's knitted brows and eyes that is full of determination to improve, even when nichkhun doesn't know what else junho could improve on, because that boy is just dripping with talent.
one look at wooyoung's sweat trickling down his neck as he repeat their dance steps for nichkhun, because even if wooyoung has perfected his, nichkhun is still having difficulty perfecting his.
one look at taecyeon's bright smile despite his really tired eyes threatening to close any minute, his giant long limbs flailing all over the place without any sense of rhythm, missing beats here there and everywhere.
one look at junsu’s frustration as his voice keeps cracking, but he tries his adlib again and again, even if everyone knows that the main problem isn’t that he is not capable, but it’s because his voice has been overused.
one look at how far they have gotten up to.
all this, moments of practicing till dawn breaks in a damp practice room that smells like sweat, moments of frustration of not getting choreography right after what seems like the millionth try, moments where they simply could not say anything coherent to each other because they are too exhausted to even open their mouth, these are moments that nichkhun wouldn't exchange for what it's worth, because having five other amazing people to share all this with, is worth more than anything he could ever wish for.
as their hands stacks on top of each other, nichkhun doesn’t know if it’s the heat of all of them combined or if its something else, but he feels an exhilarating rush of energy filling up his entire being, and his tiredness washes away just like that. the tired faces around him are starting to break out into a thin smile as they shouted together,
"dont. stop. cant. stop. two p m. go."
there’s nowhere else to go, nichkhun says to himself, there’s nowhere else to go but up.
♥
A/N: thanks for readingggg my lovelies :DDD and now i have to fulfill some student duties. kkk.