Dearest Friends
My first blog entry here was in July of 2001. I was 20 years old, right out of college, still in the mindset that I was going to be a doctor because I thought success was measured with money and education, and thought that the stepping stones of life after college were supposed to be a career, a house, marriage, and children.
Lately I am beginning to find that when I drive myself my light is found." (incubus)
What happened instead was a sharp turn off the path for magnificent and scary and ride of self-discovery through high highs and low lows.
"The world is a rollercoaster and I am not strapped in, maybe I should hold with care but my hands are busy in the air..." (incubus)
Back then I did not have the brain capacity to think of the life I am leading now as even a POSSIBILITY. That I would work as a music therapist in a psychiatric hospital. And that I would travel the world, meet my heroes, and became a musician.... that still blows my mind. I still have my moments of playing guitar and thinking, "am I really doing this?" Who would have thought that in the last two weeks of my twenties I would go to San Diego and get inspired at a music therapy conference, create a goal to open my own healing arts practice, sit in Sombero and write a letter Mark Hoppus thanking him for bring a part of the best things in my life, watch Dave Grohl and John Paul Jones play show together, work my ass off on preparing the album I recorded in India for release.... and on my last night of 29, sell my music and play a show.
"I cannot guess what we'll discover." (dcfc)
Some things I've learned over the past 10 years:
If you want something bad enough you can make it happen.
You have to take chances in order to learn.
The rewards of stepping outside of your comfort zone greatly outweigh the discomfort that comes with it.
My dream is not the American dream.
To follow my heart.
"Tell me that you'll open your eyes." (snow patrol)
This blog documents some of the best moments I've lived: Dreams coming true, crazy concert stories, travel stories, meeting special people, and my own accomplishments.... all through passion, courage, good timing, and EFFORT. I feel a bit exhausted thinking back on how much emotional and physical energy it took to do all of this but of course it was completely worth it. I look through these entries and I am glad I am reading my own blog because I would be really jealous if that was someone else's life.
And so today I turn 30, and I look back on my 20's with a beautiful feeling that I am living my best life. In a gesture of letting go and moving forward I am going to end this blog here but keep what exists online so I can read back on it when I want to (and check my friends page every so often). I will be starting a new blog for a fresh start for a new decade.
"Loving every rise and fall the sun will make and I will take a breath to be sure of it." (rhcp)
Thank you friends and livejournal!
It will all continue here: http://shinelikeamillionsuns.blogspot.com/
"Limitless undying love that shines around me like a million suns and calls me on and on across the universe...." (the beatles)
with much love and optimism,
Ami
Lately I am beginning to find that when I drive myself my light is found." (incubus)
What happened instead was a sharp turn off the path for magnificent and scary and ride of self-discovery through high highs and low lows.
"The world is a rollercoaster and I am not strapped in, maybe I should hold with care but my hands are busy in the air..." (incubus)
Back then I did not have the brain capacity to think of the life I am leading now as even a POSSIBILITY. That I would work as a music therapist in a psychiatric hospital. And that I would travel the world, meet my heroes, and became a musician.... that still blows my mind. I still have my moments of playing guitar and thinking, "am I really doing this?" Who would have thought that in the last two weeks of my twenties I would go to San Diego and get inspired at a music therapy conference, create a goal to open my own healing arts practice, sit in Sombero and write a letter Mark Hoppus thanking him for bring a part of the best things in my life, watch Dave Grohl and John Paul Jones play show together, work my ass off on preparing the album I recorded in India for release.... and on my last night of 29, sell my music and play a show.
"I cannot guess what we'll discover." (dcfc)
Some things I've learned over the past 10 years:
If you want something bad enough you can make it happen.
You have to take chances in order to learn.
The rewards of stepping outside of your comfort zone greatly outweigh the discomfort that comes with it.
My dream is not the American dream.
To follow my heart.
"Tell me that you'll open your eyes." (snow patrol)
This blog documents some of the best moments I've lived: Dreams coming true, crazy concert stories, travel stories, meeting special people, and my own accomplishments.... all through passion, courage, good timing, and EFFORT. I feel a bit exhausted thinking back on how much emotional and physical energy it took to do all of this but of course it was completely worth it. I look through these entries and I am glad I am reading my own blog because I would be really jealous if that was someone else's life.
And so today I turn 30, and I look back on my 20's with a beautiful feeling that I am living my best life. In a gesture of letting go and moving forward I am going to end this blog here but keep what exists online so I can read back on it when I want to (and check my friends page every so often). I will be starting a new blog for a fresh start for a new decade.
"Loving every rise and fall the sun will make and I will take a breath to be sure of it." (rhcp)
Thank you friends and livejournal!
It will all continue here: http://shinelikeamillionsuns.blogspot.com/
"Limitless undying love that shines around me like a million suns and calls me on and on across the universe...." (the beatles)
with much love and optimism,
Ami