do not get me wrong.
I posted this as a blog on myspace so I figured I'd post it here too.
So I'm pretty frustrated right now. I think I might list my frustrations.
1. being treated like crap
2. people thinking alcohol can solve their problems
3. guys wanting nothing but a piece of ass
Theres more...I just can't think of them all right now, these are the ones that are in the front of my mind. Ya know.. like what I'm thinking about the most. Consuming my thoughts...my dreams... my everything.
There are also things that I would like to say yay for.
1. my bestest friends. oh and the olive garden.
2. my ffbff <3
3. elizabeth mae and her adorableness and how I love her sooooo much.
4. random saturday nights. (not trashy bars though)
5. my family
6. the spill canvas
7. fruit loops
8. the rodeo :) yesssssss
9. going out.
And thats that. So I obviously have a lot in my life to be happy about. And I am. I like the feeling of being high on life, and just having a good time.
But back to my frustrations... number 1, being treated like crap is never cool. I'm not going to say what exactly it is that everyone does to make me feel like I''m being treated in such a way...but seriously sometimes I couldn't feel more used or played with or even just disrespected. I guess I just get sick of it. I try to be nice and all that jazz, just to have it thrown back in my face.
Okay, now for number two, the whole alcoholism--alcohol will solve all of my problems bullshit. Okay right. So lets just do a hypothetical situation here... say you go out get totally shit faced, do a ton of stupid shit, maybe even make an ass of yourself, perhaps do things you'll regret later, you know all the good stuff that happens when one gets totally shitfaced. Okay so you go home after, get some rest, wake up feeling like shit, because if you drank enough...you're hungover. You might throw up, have a massive headache, throw up again, think you're going to die...you know all that good stuff after a real good night out. So while you're feeling like crap... is that when you realize...oh wait...my problems.... still there! Funny thing isn't it? There isn't some magic mix in alcohol that's like fairy dust and just makes them disappear folks. I hate to tell you this...but theres pretty much nothing you can do to get rid of all the things that make your life soooo horrible, except suck it up, deal with them, try to fix them, look on the brighter side, and just live your life. Oh and try to realize, your life isn't all that bad. You could have it much worse. Thank God for being alive and all the blessings that you do have and get on with it....don't try to drink your problems away. Your problems help define you as a person... because think about it.... what would life be without our trials and tribulations? BORING! And probably a lot less stressful. But guess what it's life and you'll survive. Alcohol will only take your mind off it temporarily and make you feel real good for a few hours. I'm not trying to say that I'm not guilty of doing some stupid things...but when I drink to be social and have a good time, I know its not going to solve my problems... they are still there when I wake up in the morning and hell I might even have some new ones to deal with.
Next, guys just wanting a piece of ass. I really don't want to get started because I could seriously go on and on. Ever think it might not hurt to get to know a person...or perhaps actually be in love? Is that so much to ask? I mean after all the whole act of having sex is sometimes refered to as "making love" not, "lets randomly hook up and have a good time, and 'just have fun'" but I mean I could be wrong... the definition could have been changed and I didn't get the memo. Or I could just have values and morals and cerish that act as something of meaning and love. I'm not saying that people shouldn't be having sex. Go ahead, do it, do it everyday, 20 times a day for all I care. I'm just saying maybe think about it as an act of love and then think about if you really love the person you're with. Oh and having sex with some random person you 'don't know all that well' that has some serious risks. I'm gonna say one word about that: diesease. Just think about it. Thats all I'm saying. If randomly "hooking up" (aka sex... I know its a loosely used term, but for purposes of this blog it means sex) is your thing, then by all means, go for it. I just don't get it, and if someone could enlighten me, that'd be great...because I love knowing all sides of the story. Just for once in my life, it'd be nice to meet a guy that wanted to get to know me, figure me out, all that good stuff, instead of being focused on getting in my pants. I'm finding it harder and harder to believe that there are guys out there that are actually going to do that. But if I keep searching maybe someday I'll find the guy that wants to know me and love me, not just see my pants on the floor next to his bed.
Please, no one take this personally, these are just my general thoughts. They are not meant to hurt anyone's feelings or harm anyone in any way. And don't think that if you drink (a lot) or randomly have sex with people that I'm going to hate you. Because I don't judge people by what they do, I just try to make sense of it. Don't be afraid to tell me about your nights out or anything... I'm not going to judge you by the things you say... its your own life, and I'm not God so I'm not going to judge. But please just no one take offense to this.
So I'm pretty frustrated right now. I think I might list my frustrations.
1. being treated like crap
2. people thinking alcohol can solve their problems
3. guys wanting nothing but a piece of ass
Theres more...I just can't think of them all right now, these are the ones that are in the front of my mind. Ya know.. like what I'm thinking about the most. Consuming my thoughts...my dreams... my everything.
There are also things that I would like to say yay for.
1. my bestest friends. oh and the olive garden.
2. my ffbff <3
3. elizabeth mae and her adorableness and how I love her sooooo much.
4. random saturday nights. (not trashy bars though)
5. my family
6. the spill canvas
7. fruit loops
8. the rodeo :) yesssssss
9. going out.
And thats that. So I obviously have a lot in my life to be happy about. And I am. I like the feeling of being high on life, and just having a good time.
But back to my frustrations... number 1, being treated like crap is never cool. I'm not going to say what exactly it is that everyone does to make me feel like I''m being treated in such a way...but seriously sometimes I couldn't feel more used or played with or even just disrespected. I guess I just get sick of it. I try to be nice and all that jazz, just to have it thrown back in my face.
Okay, now for number two, the whole alcoholism--alcohol will solve all of my problems bullshit. Okay right. So lets just do a hypothetical situation here... say you go out get totally shit faced, do a ton of stupid shit, maybe even make an ass of yourself, perhaps do things you'll regret later, you know all the good stuff that happens when one gets totally shitfaced. Okay so you go home after, get some rest, wake up feeling like shit, because if you drank enough...you're hungover. You might throw up, have a massive headache, throw up again, think you're going to die...you know all that good stuff after a real good night out. So while you're feeling like crap... is that when you realize...oh wait...my problems.... still there! Funny thing isn't it? There isn't some magic mix in alcohol that's like fairy dust and just makes them disappear folks. I hate to tell you this...but theres pretty much nothing you can do to get rid of all the things that make your life soooo horrible, except suck it up, deal with them, try to fix them, look on the brighter side, and just live your life. Oh and try to realize, your life isn't all that bad. You could have it much worse. Thank God for being alive and all the blessings that you do have and get on with it....don't try to drink your problems away. Your problems help define you as a person... because think about it.... what would life be without our trials and tribulations? BORING! And probably a lot less stressful. But guess what it's life and you'll survive. Alcohol will only take your mind off it temporarily and make you feel real good for a few hours. I'm not trying to say that I'm not guilty of doing some stupid things...but when I drink to be social and have a good time, I know its not going to solve my problems... they are still there when I wake up in the morning and hell I might even have some new ones to deal with.
Next, guys just wanting a piece of ass. I really don't want to get started because I could seriously go on and on. Ever think it might not hurt to get to know a person...or perhaps actually be in love? Is that so much to ask? I mean after all the whole act of having sex is sometimes refered to as "making love" not, "lets randomly hook up and have a good time, and 'just have fun'" but I mean I could be wrong... the definition could have been changed and I didn't get the memo. Or I could just have values and morals and cerish that act as something of meaning and love. I'm not saying that people shouldn't be having sex. Go ahead, do it, do it everyday, 20 times a day for all I care. I'm just saying maybe think about it as an act of love and then think about if you really love the person you're with. Oh and having sex with some random person you 'don't know all that well' that has some serious risks. I'm gonna say one word about that: diesease. Just think about it. Thats all I'm saying. If randomly "hooking up" (aka sex... I know its a loosely used term, but for purposes of this blog it means sex) is your thing, then by all means, go for it. I just don't get it, and if someone could enlighten me, that'd be great...because I love knowing all sides of the story. Just for once in my life, it'd be nice to meet a guy that wanted to get to know me, figure me out, all that good stuff, instead of being focused on getting in my pants. I'm finding it harder and harder to believe that there are guys out there that are actually going to do that. But if I keep searching maybe someday I'll find the guy that wants to know me and love me, not just see my pants on the floor next to his bed.
Please, no one take this personally, these are just my general thoughts. They are not meant to hurt anyone's feelings or harm anyone in any way. And don't think that if you drink (a lot) or randomly have sex with people that I'm going to hate you. Because I don't judge people by what they do, I just try to make sense of it. Don't be afraid to tell me about your nights out or anything... I'm not going to judge you by the things you say... its your own life, and I'm not God so I'm not going to judge. But please just no one take offense to this.