I think this is a risk I'm gonna have to take.
So this whole California thing... I want to go... bad.
But today I found out some things that are keeping me from being able to go, well at least go without other consequences in NY. Such as, if I go, it will be against my parents wishes. And anyone that knows me, knows I love and respect my parents to death and would never do anything to make them not trust me or rebel against them...but this is something that I REALLY want to do, and I think that I need to do. I'm not doing it just because they don't want me to, I'm doing it because I want to. It's something for once that I want to do, fullheartedly. I've never really wanted to go on a trip so much before. I don't know why I'm feeling so strongly that I need to do this and its going to be good for me, but my gut is telling me go for it and the money will work out and everything will be fine. But I also have my head telling me there is no way in hell this is going to work. Ugh.
I'll figure it out, if not Jacquie is kidnapping me and we're going.
But today I found out some things that are keeping me from being able to go, well at least go without other consequences in NY. Such as, if I go, it will be against my parents wishes. And anyone that knows me, knows I love and respect my parents to death and would never do anything to make them not trust me or rebel against them...but this is something that I REALLY want to do, and I think that I need to do. I'm not doing it just because they don't want me to, I'm doing it because I want to. It's something for once that I want to do, fullheartedly. I've never really wanted to go on a trip so much before. I don't know why I'm feeling so strongly that I need to do this and its going to be good for me, but my gut is telling me go for it and the money will work out and everything will be fine. But I also have my head telling me there is no way in hell this is going to work. Ugh.
I'll figure it out, if not Jacquie is kidnapping me and we're going.