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So I'm pretty much stressed to no end right now and I should be studying but I figure I can take a break since I've been studying for 2 and a half hours now.
This next part is going to be a bunch of bitching by me.
Here's the deal.
I'm sick of being the one who has to put up with everyone's shit, and god forbid I ever say how I feel or say the same things they say to me, lord knows they'd flip shit on me. I'm sick of it. I have to be the reasonable one and I can't over react at all. I have to be mature and keep my mouth shut. Once the tables are turned I can't say a word, but when its the other way around people can bitch me out and make me feel like shit. But I know I can't do that to them. Its ridiculous and I'm sick of it. Maybe this wouldnt bother me so much if I wasn't so stressed but I seriously don't care. And if someone feels the need to say something to me about something I do/did that makes them angry, I can gaurantee you I'm not going to be able to keep my mouth shut much longer.
Also I just want another chance. That's all. Theres things that from the start didnt have a chance. Like my finals right now, NO CHANCE IN HELL. But at least when something happens that has a little bit of a chance you'd think you'd try everything possible to make that chance worth it. Break is coming up and I wish and pray that I can figure some things out and give things a chance. I like when people give me a chance even when I know I don't really deserve one, but honestly at this point I think I do. But whatever.
All of this babble makes no sense.
And I have to get back to studying for my 5 finals. 2 wednesday and 3 on thursday. Yay. I'm so fricken excited. I'm going to need a drink, so whoever wants to come, I'm going out on thursday night. Even if it ends up being by myself.
Have a great week everyone. See you on Friday.
This next part is going to be a bunch of bitching by me.
Here's the deal.
I'm sick of being the one who has to put up with everyone's shit, and god forbid I ever say how I feel or say the same things they say to me, lord knows they'd flip shit on me. I'm sick of it. I have to be the reasonable one and I can't over react at all. I have to be mature and keep my mouth shut. Once the tables are turned I can't say a word, but when its the other way around people can bitch me out and make me feel like shit. But I know I can't do that to them. Its ridiculous and I'm sick of it. Maybe this wouldnt bother me so much if I wasn't so stressed but I seriously don't care. And if someone feels the need to say something to me about something I do/did that makes them angry, I can gaurantee you I'm not going to be able to keep my mouth shut much longer.
Also I just want another chance. That's all. Theres things that from the start didnt have a chance. Like my finals right now, NO CHANCE IN HELL. But at least when something happens that has a little bit of a chance you'd think you'd try everything possible to make that chance worth it. Break is coming up and I wish and pray that I can figure some things out and give things a chance. I like when people give me a chance even when I know I don't really deserve one, but honestly at this point I think I do. But whatever.
All of this babble makes no sense.
And I have to get back to studying for my 5 finals. 2 wednesday and 3 on thursday. Yay. I'm so fricken excited. I'm going to need a drink, so whoever wants to come, I'm going out on thursday night. Even if it ends up being by myself.
Have a great week everyone. See you on Friday.