this hurts more than anyone would know
i dont understand. all i try to do is be supportive... i try to care about other people that are important to him. i just try to be supportive and happy that he is passing the time and out having a good time. why does everything have to be turned against me to turn me into the bad guy? i didnt do anything wrong...
i am hurting right now.. and i am alone. nobody would know what thats like more than i would. they think its hard dealing with me gone and being alone?? well im the fuckin one that left and has nobody. and i have no support i guess.. i just hope that one day he will understand that it is hard for me too... so hard. i just hope that he is as much there for me when i need him that i am there for him when he needs me. and that no matter what.. little arguments or not.. i still love him more than anything. i dont wanna fight with him. i hate it. i just want to be happy but its hard when your 1300 miles away. i know we can make it.i know we can. i have faith for the first time in my life... that we can do this. i hope he believes it too.
if anyone cares about me at all... i would hope that they would call me after reading this to see if im okay. maybe hoping isnt enough... i would expect at least one call.. dont care when it is.. but from one person... he knows who he is.
i am hurting right now.. and i am alone. nobody would know what thats like more than i would. they think its hard dealing with me gone and being alone?? well im the fuckin one that left and has nobody. and i have no support i guess.. i just hope that one day he will understand that it is hard for me too... so hard. i just hope that he is as much there for me when i need him that i am there for him when he needs me. and that no matter what.. little arguments or not.. i still love him more than anything. i dont wanna fight with him. i hate it. i just want to be happy but its hard when your 1300 miles away. i know we can make it.i know we can. i have faith for the first time in my life... that we can do this. i hope he believes it too.
if anyone cares about me at all... i would hope that they would call me after reading this to see if im okay. maybe hoping isnt enough... i would expect at least one call.. dont care when it is.. but from one person... he knows who he is.