Ganymede chapter 4
“Fuuuuu!” I let out a big sigh. Maybe I did imagine him after all. Yeah, I just freaked out because I crossed that dumb savanna desert under that 12 o’ clock sun. Must be some sun sickness I have, and if I stay in the sun for long, it might happen again, I thought, shielding my eyes from the piercing sunlight. Damn, I might get blinded with so much of sun.
To tell you the truth, I sorta freaked out after whatever happened, or I thought happened. So after that lady at the office confirmed that I was in section A, I decided to skip the rest of the period. I mean, who the hell would go in there to attend a lecture on Mathematics on the first day? Duh, not me. So I was on the terrace, trying to get a nap. That is, if I could get him out of my mind. (Don’t ask me how did I get a key, yeah, coz if I tell anyone my source’s name, it might get spread like wildfire and he or she might get suspended or something like that. ) I was lying up here, on the elevation created for the water tank or something (I wasn’t interested to know what…), trying to get the sun outta my face, hiding in the shadows of the water tank. With my left arm over my eyes, I blindly pushed the play button in my mp3 player.
I heard piano music. Duh, soft music, again? What happened to all that Manson or Hetfield mixes I had? …But, again…this sort of music, reminds me of him, I thought, and didn’t change the song. Blah…at least it’d help me sleep. Lame excuse, Tommy, lame excuse.
“In this life, we all search for something…”
Yeah, right, like right now I was searching for- number one, an easy way in which I could lie down, and sleep peacefully, number two, a way to get him outta my fucking mind, and number three, something which would stop the sunlight from burning my face.
“Something good, and something oh so pure,”
Pure. Yeah, he reminded me of purity…I don’t know why, just the look in his eyes, his touch, his voice, his smile, his… everything. Gawd! Tommy Joe! What happened to the time you said you were tired of cheesy romances? I slapped myself.
But, that didn’t stop a dumb smile from spreading over my face every time I thought about him. Now what? I sounded like a gay Christmas elf!
-Gay-
What-wait, a second. My eyes flung open, and I blinked, blinded by the sun. Wait, I'll just ignore the sun for a second. But...Why didn’t occur to me till now? Shit! I…oh crap, man! I didn’t notice that he was a guy as well? How can I not notice this? Oh man, oh man, oh man!! I slapped myself again. I kissed a guy without even thinking how would he feel about it?
C’mon, Tommy, it did not look like he didn’t like it. Yeah, right. If he had disliked it in the first place, he should have slapped me or something like that, not given me a huge grin or something like that. I grinned (that dumb smile again) and closed my eyes. Now, you sleep, Tommy Joe, or else I’ll get you a tattoo which says “Kiss me, Imma gay Christmas elf!!” along with a smiley face or a heart, get me?
Horrified with my own self blackmailing me, I shut my eyes. Okay, I’ll sleep now…I swear.
“Well I believe, that if you found that one thing,
You must fight, for then you will be sure.”
Be sure? As in being sure whether my new crush was real or not? Yeah, riiiight. Crush. I blushed. Oh, great, now you’re blushing like I girl. I flung my eyes open again. Hold the phone again. Girls. All I was concerned was about him, and I forgot about myself. Well, I am sure that until this morning I was supposedly straight. I- I never dated guys before, let alone kiss them. (Though I was good at kissing, thank you very much!) And now? I asked myself, was I okay with kissing a guy?
A strange smirk spread over my face, and I shook my head to myself.
Damn it! I was a lot more than okay.
Hehe…I didn’t realize I was this broadminded…
Cough, cough, Tommy Joe, tattoo?
Yeah, right. I closed my eyes again. And that dumb smile too, returned.
All I wanted now, was to kick the sun in the face. It was too bright.
“Could it be that I have found an angel?”
Yeah, he must be an angel. That would explain how he can be all cute and beautiful and hot and charming and adorable and …everything good(?!) at the same time. (Sorry, I would have explained more broadly, but sometimes, I’m too lazy, hehe…)
“I can see heaven in your eyes.”
Yeah, that’s sooo true.
Those beautiful, beautiful blue eyes, which seem to be a complete reflection of the blue sky, colored with puffy white clouds. Clouds…I sighed. The way they lock away the heat and piercing light of the sun. Clouds…which come flying with the cool winds… I sighed with pleasure at a cool breeze which caressed my face. Wait, a sec, cool breeze? I opened my eyes and saw huge, dark clouds looming above me. Woah…That’s like a dream come true… If I’ve got an angel with me, he surely is getting all goodie goodie over me. I smiled at another gentle breeze, even though it messed up my hair.
“In my soul, I never will be lonely
For there will be an angel by my side…”
My angel… with blue eyes… and ebony hair… I turned to my side, smiling to myself. But maybe I shouldn’t have, (turned, I mean). One of my earphones slipped out…
I heard a voice and my eyes snapped open. This voice…it was his voice!! I slowly sat up and peered behind the water tank.
My heart did a Elizabeathen opera in my chest. (Thank goodness it wasnt my voice...geez, Elizabeathen operas do NOT suit my voice...)
Dancing to himself and singing in that angelic voice of his, was my Angel! Okay, thinking it that way, was embarrassing. My face flushed. I sighed at his beautiful movements. My heart was now leading a marathon race. (At this rate, it would surely win gold in the Olympics…). So, he’s for real!
They way he hit the high notes, I was awestruck. He. Was. Amazing.
He was, surrounded by, at least hundreds of fireflies(?). But, how is that possible? Maybe I’m dreaming…Yeah, I nodded to myself. Nothing to be surprised of. But then, my own body surprised me.
I found myself walking towards him. Feet, stop! I commanded, but they didn’t obey. My attention drifted to him.
He was laughing out loud. As if someone was tickling him. So he’s ticklish, heh?
“There were times I never thought I'd make it
Never dreamed I'd find someone like you”
Closer, and closer. My heart was slamming hard in my chest. He had his eyes closed now. As he hit the second verse, he started dancing, as if he were dancing with someone else. But there was nobody I could see. I saw tears in his eyes. He twirled his hand, as if he was twirling his partner. Partner, my heart skipped a beat. His hands reached out to his right, as if he was switching partners.
“Who'd be there when days were at their darkest
Watching over everything I do”
He was talking, whispering to himself (?) and blushing (?). I could see that clearly, because he was standing just next to me. (Woah! When did he get this close? I swear just a few seconds back he was twenty feet away!) His hands twirled away, and he directly stepped in front of me. My body went numb that moment. He just took me in his arms, and danced with me as if it was meant to happen.
Then he sang out to me. Sang with all his passion. All his emotions. As if I were the last person in the world. And, if it was with him, I’d surely and happily be the last person with him. His eyes, they could see my soul. Hypnotizing and soul gazing, piercing and comfortable, gentle and nervous, pure, and full of love. Love, could it be, for me?? My dumb smile returned, but accompanied by a huge blush this time. Sheez! I tried to hide it with my fringe. Was it working?
I got a big bear hug for my answer. (But I still don’t know if it worked or not.) But, all I knew was that my angel was really warm and soft and comfortable. He felt so safe. I did not understand whether I was imagining him or not…But I returned that hug anyway. Now, I was completely confused and happy, at the same time. Maybe he wasn’t for real.
He pulled back with a cute dorky grin on his face. Then, those emotions changed. He..was confused (?) too. He peered in my face. Damn, that was too close, I felt his breath on my lips, and my face turned redder.
“Tommy?” He called out my name. I felt déjà vu. I swear, I’ve heard my name in this voice before. But, I couldn’t remember when. And I even forgot that I needed to answer him.
Maybe he wasn’t for real. I couldn’t be sure of myself. My hand rose. Hand, stop! But it didn’t. Oh damn! Why do I NOT have control over my own body parts? Higher, my hand reached higher. And touched his face. It was just shooo warm and shoft! [translation: so warm and soft. Try pursing your lips and saying that. Yeah, exactly when you see something all cute and adorable.] I wanted to pinch his cheeks. But I knew that it would just embarrass me further. So I controlled myself.
Yesssh! He’s for real! I so wanted to talk to him. His name. What was he doing here? The fireflies? The dances? Our kiss? What did he think about me? Why was he so beautiful? (...Okay, ignore that last one…that was just my crazy heart…) But before I could open my dumbfounded mouth, I saw panic wash over his face…He clicked he fingers.
The next moment, everything, the clouds, the fireflies, and my angel, disappeared(?).
“Could it be that I have found an angel
I can see heaven in your eyes
In my soul I never will be lonely
For there will be an angel by my side
There will be an angel by my side”
Yeah, after an hour of pondering, I was sure that I’d imagined him. See, I was under the sun! My sun sickness, remember?
I decided that I should attend the rest of the classes. Duh, I missed one class and I imagined myself kissing a guy. Next class and we were slow dancing. What next? Maybe you’ll do it with him.
Shut up brain!
How come my body doesn’t obey me? I blushed hard and walked faster to attend whatever my next class was. I reached the door, and saw that the teacher wasn’t in yet. I rushed to my bench and sat down. There was someone else sitting beside me, bent down searching in his bag. Must be some random dude. [*From the author~In our school, we have benches for two, so I thought I’d put that in my story too, hehehe, read and you’ll understand why.] I took out my bottle and brought it close to my lips, peering over my bench mate.
“Hey dude,” I called out to him, sipping some water, “what did I miss all this time?”
“Me.” Came a husky soft voice.
I turned and saw a set of blue eyes, and-and that face. He was here! Sitting beside me, and grinning like a motherfucker.
“YOU!” I choked and spilled the water all over the desk, and myself.
“In my soul I never will be lonely
For there will be an angel by my side”
To tell you the truth, I sorta freaked out after whatever happened, or I thought happened. So after that lady at the office confirmed that I was in section A, I decided to skip the rest of the period. I mean, who the hell would go in there to attend a lecture on Mathematics on the first day? Duh, not me. So I was on the terrace, trying to get a nap. That is, if I could get him out of my mind. (Don’t ask me how did I get a key, yeah, coz if I tell anyone my source’s name, it might get spread like wildfire and he or she might get suspended or something like that. ) I was lying up here, on the elevation created for the water tank or something (I wasn’t interested to know what…), trying to get the sun outta my face, hiding in the shadows of the water tank. With my left arm over my eyes, I blindly pushed the play button in my mp3 player.
I heard piano music. Duh, soft music, again? What happened to all that Manson or Hetfield mixes I had? …But, again…this sort of music, reminds me of him, I thought, and didn’t change the song. Blah…at least it’d help me sleep. Lame excuse, Tommy, lame excuse.
“In this life, we all search for something…”
Yeah, right, like right now I was searching for- number one, an easy way in which I could lie down, and sleep peacefully, number two, a way to get him outta my fucking mind, and number three, something which would stop the sunlight from burning my face.
“Something good, and something oh so pure,”
Pure. Yeah, he reminded me of purity…I don’t know why, just the look in his eyes, his touch, his voice, his smile, his… everything. Gawd! Tommy Joe! What happened to the time you said you were tired of cheesy romances? I slapped myself.
But, that didn’t stop a dumb smile from spreading over my face every time I thought about him. Now what? I sounded like a gay Christmas elf!
-Gay-
What-wait, a second. My eyes flung open, and I blinked, blinded by the sun. Wait, I'll just ignore the sun for a second. But...Why didn’t occur to me till now? Shit! I…oh crap, man! I didn’t notice that he was a guy as well? How can I not notice this? Oh man, oh man, oh man!! I slapped myself again. I kissed a guy without even thinking how would he feel about it?
C’mon, Tommy, it did not look like he didn’t like it. Yeah, right. If he had disliked it in the first place, he should have slapped me or something like that, not given me a huge grin or something like that. I grinned (that dumb smile again) and closed my eyes. Now, you sleep, Tommy Joe, or else I’ll get you a tattoo which says “Kiss me, Imma gay Christmas elf!!” along with a smiley face or a heart, get me?
Horrified with my own self blackmailing me, I shut my eyes. Okay, I’ll sleep now…I swear.
“Well I believe, that if you found that one thing,
You must fight, for then you will be sure.”
Be sure? As in being sure whether my new crush was real or not? Yeah, riiiight. Crush. I blushed. Oh, great, now you’re blushing like I girl. I flung my eyes open again. Hold the phone again. Girls. All I was concerned was about him, and I forgot about myself. Well, I am sure that until this morning I was supposedly straight. I- I never dated guys before, let alone kiss them. (Though I was good at kissing, thank you very much!) And now? I asked myself, was I okay with kissing a guy?
A strange smirk spread over my face, and I shook my head to myself.
Damn it! I was a lot more than okay.
Hehe…I didn’t realize I was this broadminded…
Cough, cough, Tommy Joe, tattoo?
Yeah, right. I closed my eyes again. And that dumb smile too, returned.
All I wanted now, was to kick the sun in the face. It was too bright.
“Could it be that I have found an angel?”
Yeah, he must be an angel. That would explain how he can be all cute and beautiful and hot and charming and adorable and …everything good(?!) at the same time. (Sorry, I would have explained more broadly, but sometimes, I’m too lazy, hehe…)
“I can see heaven in your eyes.”
Yeah, that’s sooo true.
Those beautiful, beautiful blue eyes, which seem to be a complete reflection of the blue sky, colored with puffy white clouds. Clouds…I sighed. The way they lock away the heat and piercing light of the sun. Clouds…which come flying with the cool winds… I sighed with pleasure at a cool breeze which caressed my face. Wait, a sec, cool breeze? I opened my eyes and saw huge, dark clouds looming above me. Woah…That’s like a dream come true… If I’ve got an angel with me, he surely is getting all goodie goodie over me. I smiled at another gentle breeze, even though it messed up my hair.
“In my soul, I never will be lonely
For there will be an angel by my side…”
My angel… with blue eyes… and ebony hair… I turned to my side, smiling to myself. But maybe I shouldn’t have, (turned, I mean). One of my earphones slipped out…
I heard a voice and my eyes snapped open. This voice…it was his voice!! I slowly sat up and peered behind the water tank.
My heart did a Elizabeathen opera in my chest. (Thank goodness it wasnt my voice...geez, Elizabeathen operas do NOT suit my voice...)
Dancing to himself and singing in that angelic voice of his, was my Angel! Okay, thinking it that way, was embarrassing. My face flushed. I sighed at his beautiful movements. My heart was now leading a marathon race. (At this rate, it would surely win gold in the Olympics…). So, he’s for real!
They way he hit the high notes, I was awestruck. He. Was. Amazing.
He was, surrounded by, at least hundreds of fireflies(?). But, how is that possible? Maybe I’m dreaming…Yeah, I nodded to myself. Nothing to be surprised of. But then, my own body surprised me.
I found myself walking towards him. Feet, stop! I commanded, but they didn’t obey. My attention drifted to him.
He was laughing out loud. As if someone was tickling him. So he’s ticklish, heh?
“There were times I never thought I'd make it
Never dreamed I'd find someone like you”
Closer, and closer. My heart was slamming hard in my chest. He had his eyes closed now. As he hit the second verse, he started dancing, as if he were dancing with someone else. But there was nobody I could see. I saw tears in his eyes. He twirled his hand, as if he was twirling his partner. Partner, my heart skipped a beat. His hands reached out to his right, as if he was switching partners.
“Who'd be there when days were at their darkest
Watching over everything I do”
He was talking, whispering to himself (?) and blushing (?). I could see that clearly, because he was standing just next to me. (Woah! When did he get this close? I swear just a few seconds back he was twenty feet away!) His hands twirled away, and he directly stepped in front of me. My body went numb that moment. He just took me in his arms, and danced with me as if it was meant to happen.
Then he sang out to me. Sang with all his passion. All his emotions. As if I were the last person in the world. And, if it was with him, I’d surely and happily be the last person with him. His eyes, they could see my soul. Hypnotizing and soul gazing, piercing and comfortable, gentle and nervous, pure, and full of love. Love, could it be, for me?? My dumb smile returned, but accompanied by a huge blush this time. Sheez! I tried to hide it with my fringe. Was it working?
I got a big bear hug for my answer. (But I still don’t know if it worked or not.) But, all I knew was that my angel was really warm and soft and comfortable. He felt so safe. I did not understand whether I was imagining him or not…But I returned that hug anyway. Now, I was completely confused and happy, at the same time. Maybe he wasn’t for real.
He pulled back with a cute dorky grin on his face. Then, those emotions changed. He..was confused (?) too. He peered in my face. Damn, that was too close, I felt his breath on my lips, and my face turned redder.
“Tommy?” He called out my name. I felt déjà vu. I swear, I’ve heard my name in this voice before. But, I couldn’t remember when. And I even forgot that I needed to answer him.
Maybe he wasn’t for real. I couldn’t be sure of myself. My hand rose. Hand, stop! But it didn’t. Oh damn! Why do I NOT have control over my own body parts? Higher, my hand reached higher. And touched his face. It was just shooo warm and shoft! [translation: so warm and soft. Try pursing your lips and saying that. Yeah, exactly when you see something all cute and adorable.] I wanted to pinch his cheeks. But I knew that it would just embarrass me further. So I controlled myself.
Yesssh! He’s for real! I so wanted to talk to him. His name. What was he doing here? The fireflies? The dances? Our kiss? What did he think about me? Why was he so beautiful? (...Okay, ignore that last one…that was just my crazy heart…) But before I could open my dumbfounded mouth, I saw panic wash over his face…He clicked he fingers.
The next moment, everything, the clouds, the fireflies, and my angel, disappeared(?).
“Could it be that I have found an angel
I can see heaven in your eyes
In my soul I never will be lonely
For there will be an angel by my side
There will be an angel by my side”
Yeah, after an hour of pondering, I was sure that I’d imagined him. See, I was under the sun! My sun sickness, remember?
I decided that I should attend the rest of the classes. Duh, I missed one class and I imagined myself kissing a guy. Next class and we were slow dancing. What next? Maybe you’ll do it with him.
Shut up brain!
How come my body doesn’t obey me? I blushed hard and walked faster to attend whatever my next class was. I reached the door, and saw that the teacher wasn’t in yet. I rushed to my bench and sat down. There was someone else sitting beside me, bent down searching in his bag. Must be some random dude. [*From the author~In our school, we have benches for two, so I thought I’d put that in my story too, hehehe, read and you’ll understand why.] I took out my bottle and brought it close to my lips, peering over my bench mate.
“Hey dude,” I called out to him, sipping some water, “what did I miss all this time?”
“Me.” Came a husky soft voice.
I turned and saw a set of blue eyes, and-and that face. He was here! Sitting beside me, and grinning like a motherfucker.
“YOU!” I choked and spilled the water all over the desk, and myself.
“In my soul I never will be lonely
For there will be an angel by my side”
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