The Blue Rose 'Chapter 4
Loki was distinctly aware that he was being scrutinized by Thor's gaze. Standing in front of him, at arm's length apart, he just couldn't lift up his eyes. And then the All-Father asked them to kiss.
Thor had looked at his father as if he was being asked to strip down in front of the crowd. Loki pretty much had the same expression (even though he wasn't wearing too many garments, and stripping there would mean only to remove the fur around his waist and his cloak, not that he was proposing to do so). And then Helbindi explained that Thor could touch Loki, it wouldn't harm him, and that's when Loki realized that the two grooms had two very different reasons to be surprised. Of course.
And then maybe, his brother had said just a bit too much about his great sorcery, and really it wasn't anything; Loki just had to concentrate and renew his enchantment once in a while and his skin wouldn't burn any Aesir. But then Thor had looked at Loki with amazement and maybe pride in his eyes, and there- Loki felt that unfamiliar heat on his face again, spreading over his nose and down to his neck.
But before his mind to proceed any further, Thor closed in on him, and he was so close, and he raised his hand and it trailed along Loki's face, but all Loki could think was close, close, so close! And then he touched him. Thor was the first person to touch him besides his parents and brother. And his touch was so different; their bodies at different temperatures. The bronze skin was not as smooth as that of a Jotun's, it was rough and calloused, and yet, the touch was refreshing and electrifying, sending a current down his entire body, like it was made of pure lightning and thunder.
But then everything was happening so fast! He felt Thor incline his face, and then he was leaning in, and his face was so close, and Valhalla! His eyes were so blue that Loki felt his mind turn off. But then there was this breath on his lips and Loki realized what was happening, and he gasped and backed away, breaking his contact with Thor.
"Aye Thor! He's a shy one!"
He heard someone call out from down the stairs. And soon a smacking noise and an "Ow!" with the same voice, followed by a chorus of laughter from the audience, but he could barely pay attention. His heart was hammering loudly in his chest, and he had this strange- this feeling bubbling in his chest.
Thor took another step closer to him, and Loki's hands automatically ascended to defend himself. But Thor took the opportunity to grab him by the waist, and Loki felt that his heart would leap out of his mouth. He bit his lip in, trying to hide them from being kissed. Loki felt trapped, and immediately wanted to run away. But Thor had a tight grip on him, and his hand was hot on his cold waist, and he had such nice and kind eyes, that Loki immediately stopped squirming when Thor simply sssh'ed him.
You have to do it for Jotunheim. For your father! Loki immediately scolded himself. How could he act like this? What happened to his usual self-control? Couldn't he bear one kiss for his family?
But.
This would be my first kiss.
Though he never had one, Loki knew what a kiss was; he did read all sorts of novels and novellas. He had always dreamt of his first kiss. Always had wanted to share it with his one true love. But he was getting one now, and he wasn't sure if he was ready for it. But its too late to back away now. He wanted to get out of this mess. But he didn't want to let his kingdom down. He just- he wasn't sure what he wanted.
He felt Thor's free hand on his shoulder, and then Thor leaned in. Loki closed his eyes, waiting for the impact, the touch. But then he felt a soft breath on his ear.
"Is this your first, my prince?" Thor whispered, his tone low. Loki opened his eyes. He really hadn't expected the Asgardian to understand. His eyes were still wide when Thor straightened back. It was when Thor tilted his head that Loki remembered that he was asked something, and he nodded, heart still hammering loudly in his chest.
"Relax," Thor whispered, giving him a bright grin, "it'll be fine." Loki saw the genuine smile on his face, and that was the last thing he saw before he nodded and closed his eyes.
Gently, Thor dragged Loki closer by the waist, and his other hand pulled up to cup his face.
"Ready?" He whispered, lips merely breaths apart, and Loki nodded again.
And then Thor kissed him.
The whole court burst into cheers, clapping and applauding and laughing. But Loki was unaware of everything around him, he only felt the few hot touches caressing his body; one on his waist, the other on his face, and his lips- caressed by another set. This feel on his lips was hot, and soft and foreign and yet delightful at the same time. It felt wonderful, and Loki felt like Thor might have pulled away too soon.
He opened his eyes when he felt the loss of heat as Thor pulled away. He slowly raised his hand and touched his lips, face getting hotter- so hot that he felt that his icy body would melt away.
Everything that followed went by in a haze, the All-Father finally declared them together. Thor turned to the crowd and flashed a bright smile, waving back to all those subjects who waved at him. Loki followed him, and turned to face the crowd, but everything was too bright for him to handle, and he simply stood beside his husband. There were people congratulating them, cheering from below the podium, his brother, his new family, gathering around him, but all he could feel, was the slightest tingling in his lips, and his fingertips touching his husband's, igniting small sparks within in his heart.