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well its been a while, i'm now at uni in carlisle. i'm having a ball but my self esteem is really low atm. had two auditions yesterday, didn't get into either of them, bitgutted but obviously it wasn't meant to be.
i feel so self concious, my singing isnt gd enough, my acting cud be alot better and my dancing....well thats just shameful! i'm so fucking fat, i need to lose weight and uni is def not the place to do it. i'm aching today, a three hour dance class a week is just painful and not quite enough, i'm aching all over. i'm gonna go out tonight for a bit of a dance, wanna get blootered and i need to get laid aswell!!!! its just not gd enough, all the guys here r gay and all the half decent ones r taken....well depressing!
i feel so self concious, my singing isnt gd enough, my acting cud be alot better and my dancing....well thats just shameful! i'm so fucking fat, i need to lose weight and uni is def not the place to do it. i'm aching today, a three hour dance class a week is just painful and not quite enough, i'm aching all over. i'm gonna go out tonight for a bit of a dance, wanna get blootered and i need to get laid aswell!!!! its just not gd enough, all the guys here r gay and all the half decent ones r taken....well depressing!