Guess it's time for an update.
Not doing well here, mentally. Shitty weather is shitty and thus does not help my mood. It's too fucking cold/icy/snowy to go and take any sort of walk in it, and there's nowhere around here to walk to anyway.
Can't use vehicles because 1) my own is out of commission for the time being - no insurance, needs a new battery and 2) my folks don't like for me to use their vehicles unless it's for an actual purpose - just 'getting out of the house' doesn't count because then I'm wasting gas.
I hate living here SO MUCH. I hate this winter, which is probably going to permanently sour me on all winters from here on out. The fucking snow just keeps coming and while it may not be as shittastic as it is in some places, it can still screw up the roads just enough to make driving a real hazard. Also, SHOVELING. ENOUGH DAMN YOU.
I need a shower (been more than a week now) but am too lazy/apathetic to bother. My writing desire has all but been flushed down the toilet - in fact I'm giving serious thought to just letting all my WIPs lapse indefinitely, despite my wish to (eventually, someday) finish them. I never could finish any projects I started...
There are apparently coyotes roaming around now, so I get to worry about that when I have to go outside to check my Boo kitty and/or the chickens - Mom found the remains of a rabbit that was hanging around the barn yesterday and Dad mentioned seeing coyote tracks *not far from the damn house*. I know coyotes aren't typically aggressive towards humans, but get them in a pack or get them hungry enough and...yeah. That's not gonna go well. >___<
Just hate this so much. I'm at a total loss as to what to do anymore; sleeping (which also doesn't go so well without a little hot chocolate or ZZZquil to help) and eating are literally the only things I do anymore. And putzing online/playing chess/Pharaoh.
Can't use vehicles because 1) my own is out of commission for the time being - no insurance, needs a new battery and 2) my folks don't like for me to use their vehicles unless it's for an actual purpose - just 'getting out of the house' doesn't count because then I'm wasting gas.
I hate living here SO MUCH. I hate this winter, which is probably going to permanently sour me on all winters from here on out. The fucking snow just keeps coming and while it may not be as shittastic as it is in some places, it can still screw up the roads just enough to make driving a real hazard. Also, SHOVELING. ENOUGH DAMN YOU.
I need a shower (been more than a week now) but am too lazy/apathetic to bother. My writing desire has all but been flushed down the toilet - in fact I'm giving serious thought to just letting all my WIPs lapse indefinitely, despite my wish to (eventually, someday) finish them. I never could finish any projects I started...
There are apparently coyotes roaming around now, so I get to worry about that when I have to go outside to check my Boo kitty and/or the chickens - Mom found the remains of a rabbit that was hanging around the barn yesterday and Dad mentioned seeing coyote tracks *not far from the damn house*. I know coyotes aren't typically aggressive towards humans, but get them in a pack or get them hungry enough and...yeah. That's not gonna go well. >___<
Just hate this so much. I'm at a total loss as to what to do anymore; sleeping (which also doesn't go so well without a little hot chocolate or ZZZquil to help) and eating are literally the only things I do anymore. And putzing online/playing chess/Pharaoh.