More and more as I find out bits of information I'm getting scared that this could crush us. That's one of the reasons why suicide weighs so heavily on my mind these days (it always has, but when things are bad, that's when it really gets bad...). I know I don't have the wits, strength or skill to survive absolute rock bottom. :/
Hope kittehs are doing all right. Purring fuzzy critters are a necessity of life. :)
I don't usually talk about my being childfree, since I see no pressing need to - it's part of me, it's just not the whole thing, you know? - but my dad is a big reason why I'm not having kids. (At least not biologically. I waffle over whether or not I'd ever be able to be a stepparent...) I can see over the years, how I've inherited a lot of his worse traits (not necessarily to the degree that his are, but trust me, they're bad enough that they've put me in plenty of binds). I refuse to inflict that on somebody else. The bad cycle has to end somewhere, so I'm self-pruning. (I hate my last name anyway.) Sometimes I even think that I was born into the wrong bunch...
Anyhoo. Gritting what's left of my teeth (I'm still worried that I'm going to lose #8 here) and getting on with it.
Hope kittehs are doing all right. Purring fuzzy critters are a necessity of life. :)
I don't usually talk about my being childfree, since I see no pressing need to - it's part of me, it's just not the whole thing, you know? - but my dad is a big reason why I'm not having kids. (At least not biologically. I waffle over whether or not I'd ever be able to be a stepparent...) I can see over the years, how I've inherited a lot of his worse traits (not necessarily to the degree that his are, but trust me, they're bad enough that they've put me in plenty of binds). I refuse to inflict that on somebody else. The bad cycle has to end somewhere, so I'm self-pruning. (I hate my last name anyway.) Sometimes I even think that I was born into the wrong bunch...
Anyhoo. Gritting what's left of my teeth (I'm still worried that I'm going to lose #8 here) and getting on with it.
*HUGS*
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