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sometimes I just like to wear my stethescope to make myself feel important. everyday I lean more towards to idea of joining the air force. things would be structured. i wouldn't need to worry about money. and there is the travel thing. i hate the war right now. i don't agree with it at all. i have a problem with losing so many of our young people for a cause that just isn't there. everything seems so meaningless sometimes. sometimes i think i should have stayed in texas. just stayed there and become even more miserable. who knows what would have happened. no one knows. i keep looking at the past. and i know i just need to let it go. i need to let everything go. i just want to run away sometimes. leaving here didn't really help me. it just made things a hell of a lot worse. god has a plan. sometimes i just want to know what it is so i can say okay then there IS a reason why i have to go through all of this.