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well yesterday afternoon i got a certified letter from the local MHMR and inside was an official statement from the sate saying i was no longer a client with them for mental health services. and at first i thought i might have done the wrong thing by leaving, but it was quickly erased by pure joy of being FREE to go somewhere's else and i felt releases from some sort of bondage that has been holding me back. i felt a lot of things and i even caught myself laughing outloud at things.
i havent noticed any manic things going on, just been depressed and sleeping more so than i have in years. i still have problems with spending sprees and can see the bipolar bs in that, but i also feel as if i might be a little OCD in stuff. but thats nothing new.
i just felt like i wasnt getting any better through MHMR and having a case worker who didnt come thru for me or did and took me places, reinforcing my agoraphobia. now that i dont have that anymore i feel much better. i just have to get back into the swing of things and get out on my own.
other than that lucky drove me up the wall in the morning with his crying for me to let him back outside that after 3 hours i finally lofted his queenie ass out the back door. and sammy stayed underneath the couch in the living room.
i watched some tv, i laughed at what i saw, i got into lj and fucked around online. i havent thrown up all week; etc....
i havent noticed any manic things going on, just been depressed and sleeping more so than i have in years. i still have problems with spending sprees and can see the bipolar bs in that, but i also feel as if i might be a little OCD in stuff. but thats nothing new.
i just felt like i wasnt getting any better through MHMR and having a case worker who didnt come thru for me or did and took me places, reinforcing my agoraphobia. now that i dont have that anymore i feel much better. i just have to get back into the swing of things and get out on my own.
other than that lucky drove me up the wall in the morning with his crying for me to let him back outside that after 3 hours i finally lofted his queenie ass out the back door. and sammy stayed underneath the couch in the living room.
i watched some tv, i laughed at what i saw, i got into lj and fucked around online. i havent thrown up all week; etc....