alone in a crowd
it's hard to say what i'm feeling. a bit empty, lonely, unfulfilled, maybe a little restless.
i can't describe it.
i also can't fix it. so what can i do?
i tried calling mom, she usually helps me organize my thoughts...but it didn't work this time.
it's that seperation that's beginning between me and home. i don't really have that "home" anymore.
i can go back to westford all i want, searching for what i've lost, but i'll never find exactly what i'm looking for.
so i have to start over, make my own home in my school, but mostly in myself.
i rely way too much on my friends from westford...i just realized that.
i miss you guys, i love you all a lot, and you'll always feel like home to me...but at some point i have to learn to rely on myself.
mom helps, but i get off the phone with her and i still feel lost.
i have to sort out my own thoughts.
it's just wierd, i guess.
it's hard.
i can't describe it.
i also can't fix it. so what can i do?
i tried calling mom, she usually helps me organize my thoughts...but it didn't work this time.
it's that seperation that's beginning between me and home. i don't really have that "home" anymore.
i can go back to westford all i want, searching for what i've lost, but i'll never find exactly what i'm looking for.
so i have to start over, make my own home in my school, but mostly in myself.
i rely way too much on my friends from westford...i just realized that.
i miss you guys, i love you all a lot, and you'll always feel like home to me...but at some point i have to learn to rely on myself.
mom helps, but i get off the phone with her and i still feel lost.
i have to sort out my own thoughts.
it's just wierd, i guess.
it's hard.