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so i finally broke last night.
i think i've been wayy too stressed.
i really should switch to going to school part time for a semester or so cuz this is all just toooo much. nearly everyone has dropped now it seems like.. :( i need someone to talk to or something in there to keep me more motivated i feel disconnected from them all. i like everyone, but i just don't talk to them really... cept mike and pedro now, but yea.... they don't count. jk.
seriously all i've had to do was class - nap - work - sleep -repeat and throw in eating once and a while.
i have no time for anything, including homework. i hate it and it makes me way to crazy and i feel out of control.
and i snapped over stupid little things, it was over my messy-ness. and how i feel worthless and bad cuz i don't even have time to clean up after myself and joe hates the room messy and stuff. and i was about to cry myself to sleep cuz i was freaking out and thinking about everything horrible. and argh.
i need to pack and get everything together i'm not going to class tomorrow so i can do dishes and laundry in the a.m. so thinks aren't bad when we get home.
but there is some good news. i'm for sure doing my manager training asap. woohoo for a raise. i need more money, i've spent sooo much on x-mas gifts and i still need to get somemore things for hayden and joe. joe especially. and i have to get him anniversary gifts too. and i have a couple ideas but nothing special. i'm going to be sooo poor when my bills all come.
hopefully we still get to go to chicago friday!! i want to take pics there. but i dont want to hold everyone up... but i'll take a million, and on the train. i'm going to be sad if we cant :(
the HIM show was good, Auf Der Maur was awesome. I loved her to begin with but her solo stuff is coooooool. and there was a stupid bitch in front us talking shit about them so i spit tiny bits of my gum in her freaky long hair. :) i'm terrible. but i hated everything that came out of the girls mouth and she was like 15, and grr. lol.
but HIM was awesome!!! <3 it was Valo's b-day too. he was sad he didn't die cuz he just turned 28 and he said now he won't be a legend. hah.
anyways... off to do something productive
i think i've been wayy too stressed.
i really should switch to going to school part time for a semester or so cuz this is all just toooo much. nearly everyone has dropped now it seems like.. :( i need someone to talk to or something in there to keep me more motivated i feel disconnected from them all. i like everyone, but i just don't talk to them really... cept mike and pedro now, but yea.... they don't count. jk.
seriously all i've had to do was class - nap - work - sleep -repeat and throw in eating once and a while.
i have no time for anything, including homework. i hate it and it makes me way to crazy and i feel out of control.
and i snapped over stupid little things, it was over my messy-ness. and how i feel worthless and bad cuz i don't even have time to clean up after myself and joe hates the room messy and stuff. and i was about to cry myself to sleep cuz i was freaking out and thinking about everything horrible. and argh.
i need to pack and get everything together i'm not going to class tomorrow so i can do dishes and laundry in the a.m. so thinks aren't bad when we get home.
but there is some good news. i'm for sure doing my manager training asap. woohoo for a raise. i need more money, i've spent sooo much on x-mas gifts and i still need to get somemore things for hayden and joe. joe especially. and i have to get him anniversary gifts too. and i have a couple ideas but nothing special. i'm going to be sooo poor when my bills all come.
hopefully we still get to go to chicago friday!! i want to take pics there. but i dont want to hold everyone up... but i'll take a million, and on the train. i'm going to be sad if we cant :(
the HIM show was good, Auf Der Maur was awesome. I loved her to begin with but her solo stuff is coooooool. and there was a stupid bitch in front us talking shit about them so i spit tiny bits of my gum in her freaky long hair. :) i'm terrible. but i hated everything that came out of the girls mouth and she was like 15, and grr. lol.
but HIM was awesome!!! <3 it was Valo's b-day too. he was sad he didn't die cuz he just turned 28 and he said now he won't be a legend. hah.
anyways... off to do something productive