december december
So the year is almost over. I am sad to hear many of my f-list suffering from losses - especially with pets ToT My sympathies to you.
[monologue] : my constructive reflections on my own artwork
Else, my exams ended last week, and like any crazy person I embarked on my journey to complete Christmas cards on time /facepalm. Which I accomplished mind you o3o /patselfonback. I... can't look at another Christmas card hahaha No more cards till Valentines day. Else, while drawing these cards I do reflect a lot about what needs to be done in order for me to improve, or what area of art should I improve in. I don't often think much, so bear with my almost non existent gray matter.
→ I constantly face this dissatisfaction of lacking consistency in my artworks. I finally concluded I like too many kinds of things to be consistent. I like trying various styles to reach various feelings get various atmospheres I want. But like anyone else I do get wrapped up in self-loathing, but this is useless, stfu and do something about it. Honestly, just shut up.
→ Wasting time complaining ain't helping anyone, especially not you. Using derogatory terms for your own works isn't helping much.
→ There was a good article about getting into the illustrating field, the author talked about sorting our your life. I like to add that understanding yourself will probably help you find how to improve.
→ That aside, I think about what is stopping me from improving? Mostly fear. I told myself I should draw a sketch of a building per day, but I haven't started yet. xD Why? cuz I'm scared to fail. But someone should punch me in the face, cuz it's better to fail while trying than to fail forever not trying (so heaven help me i will start today).
→ Find inspiration. Recently been in a rut for inspiration, and getting feelings into my drawings. It's funny that making myself draw isn't the problem; sometimes it's getting life into it to flow xD Gotta look for inspiration, but not to spend too much time on it as to not waste drawing time.
→ Stick with it. I let go of drawings in their beginning phase too early T_T;; My attention spam is terrible.
→ If you wonder if your drawings have any worth, let yourself decide first. Depending on other people's opinion all the time is not a conclusive way to determine whether your art has worth or not. It's great for people to love your artwork, but it really comes down to you. Are you drawing for yourself or for other people? I like drawing because it makes me happy and relaxed.
→ remembering my own goals as an artist: improve as much as I can (at the same time realizing my limits and acknowledging it), Getting feelings across, Having fun in fandoms with friends.
→ When I have an artblock I don't stop drawing, i keep drawing till i feel like it xD.
→ Keep trying and try different things. I overcame my fear of ink and watercolour just this year @__@. Else I keep thinking I need to do something by myself... better start doing than just thinking
→ Just have fun. Unlike other people, this isn't my job, so I'll just have fun.
Anyway I just wanted to write these thoughts down. Hopefully I can remember this.
[monologue] : my constructive reflections on my own artwork
Else, my exams ended last week, and like any crazy person I embarked on my journey to complete Christmas cards on time /facepalm. Which I accomplished mind you o3o /patselfonback. I... can't look at another Christmas card hahaha No more cards till Valentines day. Else, while drawing these cards I do reflect a lot about what needs to be done in order for me to improve, or what area of art should I improve in. I don't often think much, so bear with my almost non existent gray matter.
→ I constantly face this dissatisfaction of lacking consistency in my artworks. I finally concluded I like too many kinds of things to be consistent. I like trying various styles to reach various feelings get various atmospheres I want. But like anyone else I do get wrapped up in self-loathing, but this is useless, stfu and do something about it. Honestly, just shut up.
→ Wasting time complaining ain't helping anyone, especially not you. Using derogatory terms for your own works isn't helping much.
→ There was a good article about getting into the illustrating field, the author talked about sorting our your life. I like to add that understanding yourself will probably help you find how to improve.
→ That aside, I think about what is stopping me from improving? Mostly fear. I told myself I should draw a sketch of a building per day, but I haven't started yet. xD Why? cuz I'm scared to fail. But someone should punch me in the face, cuz it's better to fail while trying than to fail forever not trying (so heaven help me i will start today).
→ Find inspiration. Recently been in a rut for inspiration, and getting feelings into my drawings. It's funny that making myself draw isn't the problem; sometimes it's getting life into it to flow xD Gotta look for inspiration, but not to spend too much time on it as to not waste drawing time.
→ Stick with it. I let go of drawings in their beginning phase too early T_T;; My attention spam is terrible.
→ If you wonder if your drawings have any worth, let yourself decide first. Depending on other people's opinion all the time is not a conclusive way to determine whether your art has worth or not. It's great for people to love your artwork, but it really comes down to you. Are you drawing for yourself or for other people? I like drawing because it makes me happy and relaxed.
→ remembering my own goals as an artist: improve as much as I can (at the same time realizing my limits and acknowledging it), Getting feelings across, Having fun in fandoms with friends.
→ When I have an artblock I don't stop drawing, i keep drawing till i feel like it xD.
→ Keep trying and try different things. I overcame my fear of ink and watercolour just this year @__@. Else I keep thinking I need to do something by myself... better start doing than just thinking
→ Just have fun. Unlike other people, this isn't my job, so I'll just have fun.
Anyway I just wanted to write these thoughts down. Hopefully I can remember this.