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so like i really don't get along with my dad. and it's really annoying. cuz i know he's a good man but our personality just clash real hard. it's soooo annoying it drives me insane. he always puts me down in front of other people and blames me for the strangest things. ugh. but i have to remember that he's a good person -_____- /shootself
Also recently - just yesterday - my mom told me she won't pay for my tuition this year. I think it's to also get me out of the idea i'm going back to school for no apparent reason. Well there is a reason, i just wanna go to school and take human geography classes. Anyway, since it's not part of a degree she won't pay for it. Really I can pay for my tuition with ease if i had all my money on me. But I don't. I actually lent a pretty big sum to my parents which i'll never see again, but will inherit back.
So my options now are to:
1. go to school, pay the tuition
2. don't go to school, find another job, save money for later [Masters]
3. don't go to school, find another job, save some money for later, sign up for some art class or dance class
There's actually a lot of cons for me going to school again: pay tuition, academic stress, not a lot of work hours. If i didn't go and found another job, i can plan another trip to TO before the year ends *w* ahahaha /shot my priorities are so not straight. Well i need to save up to apply for grad school too... actually it'd be a good idea for me to pay a visit to TO just to visit Ryerson University.
i actually also really hope for #3 xD I would really like to take a dance class *___* either salsa or ballroom dancing would be soooo cool. So yeah, either way i really need to get a higher paying job?? and save more money for next year's cons and trips and Master. Yeah gotta start looking into which schools to do Masters in. I have McGill, Concordia, Ryerson on my list. UT doesn't really have what i'm looking for but i'll sift thru again. Maybe if i look into Guelph too. Ideally I would get accepted in Mcgill, but i'm doubting my chances because of my background and also because of my cGPA... gosh i'm having muscle spazms all over my body cuz i'm so nervous thinking about all this stuff... OTL
on a happier note, I'm going to go draw this afternoon with danbolis@dA (jinyjinjin if she rapes me plz give me discounted mental care). and also jinichu@dA asked me to guest art for her hetalia doujin. I often doubt if doujins work out or not, but i feel so honored to be asked to guest! it's my first time! >w< whoo hooooo also going to go pick up professor layton today ^^