Scared only by fault
Hello there. I am not having a good night. Chuck is here with his girlfriend and she reminded me exactly how young I was. I do not know. Last night I was messing around with Chuck. I told him to stop. He did not I told him to knock it off after he did one more time. He hurt my arm only the slightest. But when he grabbed me, I had like a flash back of my abusive boyfriends and my Grandfather. It did not hurt in like a bruise way. It just really scared me. i was in shock. He tried to apologize but the bitch I am I would not let him. Later on in the night he said he was sorry that he gave me that feeling. I forgave him as usual. Why am I so weak towards him. I can't not get mad at him. That bugs me. I am having a party tomorrow. well remember to love me.