this what you have delt me and i have no reason to be crucified
it feels so nice inside where i hold him deep. . . . but in reality i tend to believe he is not real. . . . .i trust in him but at the same time i worry because i have let him hurt me once before. . . . . . .it is times like these where i wish i could paticipate with out getting involved. . . . . . I was crying about it and it just does not seem right. . . nothing seems right. . . . . but it feels good. . . . . temporary solutions. . . . . . .and crutches. . . i am kind of scared hoping it will be different. . . .