take a long walk to the park my friends
we are no longer friends. sometimes she doesnt see that. but we're not. we never spend time with each other and we barely talk. i've told her i feel like i've lost her as a friend, and especially lately i've really needed her to be there for me if i needed her. and she hasnt been. the only thing she said was she thought we still were. no, we're sisters, but not friends.
the other night i came home and i really needed to lie with her, just have her tell me i was okay. just a few moments. i walked in her room and tried to wake her up- thats what shes there for, right? wrong. she wouldnt do it. so i cried a little bit to myself and then hugged a stuffed animal til i fell asleep. i hate going to sleep like that. and i would hope that i wouldnt have to do that here with her. wrong again.
we dont even go to the park anymore. we used to do that when we got tired of the house. not anymore. cuz now she has her car and when she gets tired or fed up or bored she goes and drives to blayre. or talks to her. and i know they're best friends. but i'm here too, feeling just as bored. and even more lonely.
the other night i came home and i really needed to lie with her, just have her tell me i was okay. just a few moments. i walked in her room and tried to wake her up- thats what shes there for, right? wrong. she wouldnt do it. so i cried a little bit to myself and then hugged a stuffed animal til i fell asleep. i hate going to sleep like that. and i would hope that i wouldnt have to do that here with her. wrong again.
we dont even go to the park anymore. we used to do that when we got tired of the house. not anymore. cuz now she has her car and when she gets tired or fed up or bored she goes and drives to blayre. or talks to her. and i know they're best friends. but i'm here too, feeling just as bored. and even more lonely.