Empty at Roddy

[americanskin02]

So this poem was written when I was in Roddy, and I was the outer loop then too apparently....
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use to believe that these four walls
 would never hold me away
from the person that i want to be
 but i'm beginning to find
that there's more to my life
 then what i had in mind
there's some sort of grandiose design
and the laughter that use to fill those 4 walls
can now be heard down the hall
no it's not me that anyone needs
and it was I alone that was deceived
but I can't change to be...
no I can't change, you see...
I can only be me
which causes this empty
 I just hope that my pillow case
can hide all of my past disgrace
that takes the form of tears
 they multiply year after lonely year
finding comfort in rhythm and rhyme
 trying to slow down that hand of precious time
missing out on what I really want in life
filling my days with woe and strife
 but I can't change to be...
no I can't change, you see..
I can only be me
 which causes this empty