the way i used to be

[americanme]

Letter From Ex...

i don't know if you really don't know what this does
to me, or is, as i've thought all along, that you
really don't care...
you don't understand what i'm talking about when i
tell you that you make me feel as if i'm only second
best...well, guess what...this is it.
this is what i'm talking about...i don't know where
you are, when you're coming home, who you're with, or
if you are thinking about me...saying, 'i don't care
what this does to her. i don't care how she feels.
all i care about is myself and making myself happy.'

well, if that's your only purpose in life, then i'm
giving you your opportunity. please, just leave me
out of it from now on. i don't want to have sex with
you anymore, i don't want you to touch me anymore,
look at me anymore...just pretend that i'm not here
and that i don't matter, not that much will change.

and yes, i am being dramatic, but who the fuck
cares...i'm tired..not you, and certainly not anyone
else...too bad i'm the only one that does, and that's
what makes it hurt so fucking much...i'm the only one
that i can truly depend on, that's the way it was
before you came along and that's the way it will go
back to being after you're gone. three and a half
more months, and i'll be out of your life...you can do
whomever and whatever you wish, until then, i'll stay
out of your hair if you stay out of mine.

i love you more than you could ever know, but all you
do is take advantage of that