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[americanizzy]

Today showed me that being happy all the time is not going to bring you anywhere. If You know me, you know that I am a child of happiness and that I am only in a bad mood very rarely. But today was somehow special. It made me realise something about myself. I realised that I cannot only be happy, because if you want to be happy you have to be sad and upset too. Theres is no such thing existing in life thats called complete happiness. If you want happiness be sad, dont try to hide away your feelings, because no person can be happy all the time. And thats what i thought about myself. I Thought Im like the happiest person ever, but i was just the happy person because i played my sadness off. When i got a bad grade i made a joke about it. If somebody went on my nerves i was ignoring them, if somebody hurt my feelings oh well, i was playing it off. And today ishowed everyone that im not only the happy child. I let my sadness out. I think it was like all the sadness i felt over the last months, because nothing happened today that made me sad. It was just like my head explode and all the feelings went out. I cried and screamed and cried and yelled and cried. And i didnt care at all if anybody saw or heard it.

so this weekend its karneval in germany. i will explain to you what it is. well some of you may have heard of carnival down in rio, brasil. its a thing where people dress up and go to a parade and party. well for us karneval just means drink and have fun. so till tuesday we are going from one party to another and just party it up. unfortunately i lost my voice yesterday so now i can only whisper... i hope my voice comes back soon.ok well for our karnevalparty on saturday and for the parade monday me and 3 of my friends will go as a herd of cows. it will be funny
okay byeee and have a great weekend