Sucker
Meh.. Today was pretty shitty. Christian and I walked to Sara's this morning because we were taking her jeep to school. We didn't even make it to Harrison before it broke down. We waited a while for AAA, then got a ride with Chris. In forensics we did some ink lab. I broke a beaker and got water everywhere. Gym was so boring I wanted to pull my hair out. At the library I played text twist and javanoid as usual. Fourth was ok. I got to glaze my Calvin and Hobbes plate and listen to the Juliana Theory.
After school I had to make up another lab for forensics. When I was done I was really looking forward to hanging out with Brooke and Jess, but they were in North Attleboro. So I watched the Simpsons and went to sleep instead. I went to Jess' afterwards. She left with Becky and Jen, so Sara, Maranda, and I hung out. It was fun as usual and we ate a whole bag of Hoodsies. We took a walk to my mom's real quick and I tried to fight Sara, but she was too afraid(haha).
Now I'm just sitting here and I can't stop thinking. Mostly about the fact that most guys are complete assholes. I'm so sick of being shit on. I just want an honest boy to be genuinely nice to me. Who knows if that will ever happen.
You know, Teddy thinks I am such a bitch, but I'm not. God, I'll admit that I was rude sometimes, but there is only so much that a person can put up with. I was with him through all that stuff he went through. Getting arrested, court, drug tests, his parents, his grandfather.. I put up with it when he lied to me constantly and then started with the name calling when I hadn't even done anything wrong. If you start telling your girlfriend you hope she dies and you call her a fucking cunt, what do you expect her reaction to be?? I see him in the hall and it's so painful. A lot of the time I can't take it. It's even worse that the last time I talked to him he thought I was lying about something stupid. His last words were, "Go fuck yourself."
I just need someone to be nice to me right now, but I've pretty much given up on guys altogether.
I need to get my mind off this shit. I'm going to go play a heated game of mancala with Mineko.
After school I had to make up another lab for forensics. When I was done I was really looking forward to hanging out with Brooke and Jess, but they were in North Attleboro. So I watched the Simpsons and went to sleep instead. I went to Jess' afterwards. She left with Becky and Jen, so Sara, Maranda, and I hung out. It was fun as usual and we ate a whole bag of Hoodsies. We took a walk to my mom's real quick and I tried to fight Sara, but she was too afraid(haha).
Now I'm just sitting here and I can't stop thinking. Mostly about the fact that most guys are complete assholes. I'm so sick of being shit on. I just want an honest boy to be genuinely nice to me. Who knows if that will ever happen.
You know, Teddy thinks I am such a bitch, but I'm not. God, I'll admit that I was rude sometimes, but there is only so much that a person can put up with. I was with him through all that stuff he went through. Getting arrested, court, drug tests, his parents, his grandfather.. I put up with it when he lied to me constantly and then started with the name calling when I hadn't even done anything wrong. If you start telling your girlfriend you hope she dies and you call her a fucking cunt, what do you expect her reaction to be?? I see him in the hall and it's so painful. A lot of the time I can't take it. It's even worse that the last time I talked to him he thought I was lying about something stupid. His last words were, "Go fuck yourself."
I just need someone to be nice to me right now, but I've pretty much given up on guys altogether.
I need to get my mind off this shit. I'm going to go play a heated game of mancala with Mineko.