MOAR MEMES
1. Your name
sofia brenda-rosetta hawkins nee cresta.
2. All the places you’ve lived
london, oxford, chicago o'hare airport, seattle, everett.
3. Your first best friend
i guess my first best friends were lulie and liberty. but lulie and i grew apart when we were older and there was a long period of time where me and liberty didn't talk. liberty is still really close to me though.
4. Your childhood fears
SPIDERS. FUCKING SPIDERS. WHAT IS THIS 'CHILDHOOD'. SPIDERS AHHH.
5. What you were like in high school:
first year: nerdy, obnoxious, terrible fashion sense. second year: angry, aggressive, bitchin' fashion sense, awesome hair, horrible eating disorder.
6. Your favourite and least favourite subjects at school
assuming this means high school, not attending class and attending class, respectively. (i would have loved english and japanese, but english was ruined by having horrible professors so i barely ever attended, and japanese was ruined by being unable to focus on it at all because of taking six other fucking college level classes. for reference, though, i got an A+ and an A in those exams.)
7. Your first boyfriend or girlfriend
this english dude called tom. unhealthy relationship based mostly on low self-esteem and the misguided impression that i was straight, but nonetheless he was pretty cool and we had fun.
8. Your oldest hobby
drawing. jeez.
9. Your sexuality
i don't KNOW. it's too complex and i don't give a shit about labeling it precisely. i just know i'm not straight.
10. What you look for in a partner
loyalty, honesty, horrible kinks, love of food, sense of adventure.
11. Your kids, or your feelings about having kids
my brother has already forbidden me from having kids because i am 'too small'. i don't actually dislike kids at all, but i'd be a terrible mother. i hated being so dependent as a kid, and i hate the idea of someone depending on me that way.
12. Your pets, past and present
fiver, my first kitten, calico, rescue, my dad wanted him to be an outdoors cat, we lived in a big city so he died after a year. sawyer, my ball python, my 20th birthday present, fat little snake, such a cutie. jack, my ragdoll kitten, my 21st birthday present. named after big boss, gray and white, blue eyes, so fat, loves toes, loves the puppy, best kitten EVER.
13. Foods you love and foods you hate
i love thai food. i love that shit more than anyone should. i also love sushi, pho, katsu curry, and just about all italian food. that's the stuff i REALLY love. i'll eat and enjoy virtually anything, with a few exceptions: i'm not a fan of avocado but i'll eat it, i have yet to find a way to prepare eggplant that i like although i'm sure it's possible, and all that shit like natto and durian can go die in a fire, it's NOT food, it's rotten soybeans and fruit that smells like DEAD PEOPLE. fuck off.
14. What your life was like ten years ago
when i was 11... music, dead kitten. honestly, i don't remember that much about my childhood. i think i was better at math then that i am now.
15. How much alcohol you drink
none. well, i like a little red wine with meals, i love sake and i don't dislike brandy, but we're poor so we don't generally buy alcohol anyway. i never get drunk.
16. Your worst illness
i don't really get physically sick... i've had a couple of bad fevers but i can't really remember a time when i got badly sick. i'm asthmatic though, and that sucks. i guess the mental issues i had from being raised by an idiot were the worst. anxiety/panic disorder and an eating disorder. but whatever, they're mostly under control now.
17. What you do at work
cook and clean, bitches.
18. A question or comment people should never make to you
"space exploration is a huge waste of time"
19. The style of clothing you feel most comfortable in
that's kind of a hard one because my style changes with my mood. sometimes i want dresses and jewelery and bare feet. sometimes i want lots of bare skin, and utilitarian - think denim, olive drab, black. sometimes i want to dress like a man and girl clothes feel stupid. sometimes i want a totally different style that i don't even own, and that's when i go clothes shopping and it's why i have so many goddamn clothes with no plans to stop.
20. Whether you’re an extrovert or an introvert
i honestly don't know. the terms annoy the shit out of me because of all that "how to respect your introvert" crap going around the internet. i guess i don't like to classify myself to that extent. sometimes i want to be around people and sometimes i want to be alone. why the fuck do i need to label that?
21. Who you have a crush on
young robert de niro. ooohhhh.
22. A friendship you lost
i guess my relationship with my cousin. we used to be really, really, REALLY close (to the point of her telling me Family secrets that i was not supposed to know) and we trusted each other with everything. since i moved and came out to her... she hasn't been rude, she hasn't rejected me (although she's really fucking ignorant about queer stuff), but i just can't talk to her any more. i guess that's the only friendship i really feel like -i- lost, as opposed to people i was friends with that turned out to be fucking psychos (not all from the internet either!).
23. Three achievements you’re proud of
i moved to america; i got my disorders under control; i bought a house.
24. Your political views
no idea. it's all become such bullshit i don't even know where to begin any more. i support israel. i supported the war. small government is good. low taxes are good. i like charity and family way better than i like welfare. i think anyone should get married to anyone. i think anyone should have the right to get abortions. i like the whole separation of church and state schtick. i have no idea what this makes me and i don't care any more - i don't know why marriage and abortions are even a political THING now. they have jack shit nothing to do with politics, that's for sure.
i have a feeling that what i am is a classical liberal, but whatever. i have opinions on some things. like them or don't, i don't care and i don't feel the need to belong to a group.
25. Your religious beliefs
i don't believe in a higher power. i believe in me and i believe in people, and i don't see the need to subjugate ourselves to anything. so those are my religious beliefs. i guess there's room for debate about whether or not i'm spiritual - i don't believe in woo stuff, but i do believe in objective morality.
26. Your perfect night out
that. THAT. depends on my mood. i'd either like to dress up to the nines and go out to the ballet/opera/concert hall and a ritzy-ass restaurant followed by coffee, or i'd like to go out for a long walk at night, to somewhere high up and secluded with a great view, drink coffee and just stay close to one another.
27. Whether you like to plan ahead or be spontaneous
spontaneity. i usually like to have -a- plan in mind, but that plan changes very easily depending on what comes up, and i love to take chances and opportunities.
28. What you look for in a friend
pretty much exactly what i look for in a partner. i don't see why there should be a huge difference.
29. Whether you’re a night owl or a morning lark
fucking night fucking owl. i'd be nocturnal if i could. i wish i were a morning person though, i hate feeling like i lose time. but i just suck at going to sleep and waking up.
30. How you would like people to remember you
...like, in general, or after i die? i guess... pilot, enthusiastic, adventurous and giving no fucks. which isn't quite what i'm like now, i know, but i don't plan to die for a long while.
although strictly speaking, i guess it's possible for me to die anytime. i probably shouldn't be putting things off like that...