Silence - and then bees.
Well, after all the hormones and negativity of the week, my faith in positivity paid off and the last two days have been nothing short of lovely. Friday morning I was woken up at eight thirty by Bebe, telling me that our laptops were en route and that maybe I wanted to get up as early as possible to get them the minute they arrived. I absolutely did and the whole morning was lovely... I was sleepy, and nauseous as I almost always am in the morning, but Bebe was very warm and I had a kind of nice, safe feeling the whole time. Even though after Bebe left to go to work (walking through the Silent Hill fog outside) my nausea peaked and I actually threw up, which I don't usually do even when it gets intense. In fact, I don't think I have for about a year or two. Nonetheless, despite it being a rare vomity day, Rinzler and Clu - our laptops - arrived at 09:40 and I just threw on a robe over my PJs and ran downstairs to carry them back.
Rinzler is the sweetest little machine ever. Not a mac, but I hardly even care now. I quite like the filing system that Bebe taught me, and I love how amazingly fast Rinzler is. He's quite limited though - which is fine for me, since I just write and draw, and travel, so his small and compact size is very useful to me. Clu is bigger, and has many more functions. It's so appropriate. Rinzler is simple t'sand straightforward as a Rinzler should be, while Clu has all of these extra creative functions. We played Amnesia: The Dark Descent on Clu and it was... well, perfect. Utterly smooth, no lag whatsoever and the graphics quality was breathtaking. So I've spent the last few days transferring massive quantities of data from Mishap to Rinzler, and organizing it too. Soon I'll be done, though!
Everything since has been lovely and delightful. One more pretty day and it will have been the perfect weekend. I feel so connected, somehow - things feel warmer and safer with Bebe than ever. Like everything is starting over, and all I have to do is stay strong and keep my anxiety down and my positivity and prettyness up.
We put a gorgeous TV stand together and reorganized a little bit - it's a process, making the apartment lovely - but it looks just amazing now. It needs more candles, which I will go out and buy tomorrow when I get my hair done with Matty. My Tron posters came, so I put those up as well as the Ex Machina poster that Goose bought me - The Great Machine being my favorite superhero, I'm so happy with it. Thank you bby~♥
We've been playing a lot of Dead Space 2 - I preordered the game for Bebe and he paid the rest when it came out. It's utterly terrifying, way beyond my skills but just watching is enough to scare me. We saw the animated movie, which turned out to have Bruce Boxleitner in it which made me a very happy little aviator.
So today I'm being grateful for everything - for every affectionate touch, for my fish (presents from Bebe, my Pets), for the surprisingly decent cooking I've been doing lately, for my friends, for Tron, for Rinzler and for Henry, for the wonderful and aromatic tea that is so much better than food, for my friends and for ballet and my family. And for more pretty days like these.
Rinzler is the sweetest little machine ever. Not a mac, but I hardly even care now. I quite like the filing system that Bebe taught me, and I love how amazingly fast Rinzler is. He's quite limited though - which is fine for me, since I just write and draw, and travel, so his small and compact size is very useful to me. Clu is bigger, and has many more functions. It's so appropriate. Rinzler is simple t'sand straightforward as a Rinzler should be, while Clu has all of these extra creative functions. We played Amnesia: The Dark Descent on Clu and it was... well, perfect. Utterly smooth, no lag whatsoever and the graphics quality was breathtaking. So I've spent the last few days transferring massive quantities of data from Mishap to Rinzler, and organizing it too. Soon I'll be done, though!
Everything since has been lovely and delightful. One more pretty day and it will have been the perfect weekend. I feel so connected, somehow - things feel warmer and safer with Bebe than ever. Like everything is starting over, and all I have to do is stay strong and keep my anxiety down and my positivity and prettyness up.
We put a gorgeous TV stand together and reorganized a little bit - it's a process, making the apartment lovely - but it looks just amazing now. It needs more candles, which I will go out and buy tomorrow when I get my hair done with Matty. My Tron posters came, so I put those up as well as the Ex Machina poster that Goose bought me - The Great Machine being my favorite superhero, I'm so happy with it. Thank you bby~♥
We've been playing a lot of Dead Space 2 - I preordered the game for Bebe and he paid the rest when it came out. It's utterly terrifying, way beyond my skills but just watching is enough to scare me. We saw the animated movie, which turned out to have Bruce Boxleitner in it which made me a very happy little aviator.
So today I'm being grateful for everything - for every affectionate touch, for my fish (presents from Bebe, my Pets), for the surprisingly decent cooking I've been doing lately, for my friends, for Tron, for Rinzler and for Henry, for the wonderful and aromatic tea that is so much better than food, for my friends and for ballet and my family. And for more pretty days like these.