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Drill - Over and Out
Friday, January 3, 2003 - 9:41:19 PM
so this is it... this is the end of the life that i've known for... well... all my life... today has been very hard on me... tomorrow will be worse... i've been crying on and off all day... but most of the time, i've held it back... it's so hard when everything i've ever known is about to change... my whole life is going to change tomorrow... and it's going to be a huge change... but, i think i'm doing the right thing by going... i've got a lot of stuff going for me there... namely kristin and piercing...
yesterday i was freaking out because i'm scared... there's a lot of things i'm not prepared for... but i talked with kristin and amiee and paige, and they all helped me through it.... i know i can handle anything that's thrown my way... i'm strong... emotional, but strong... i know i'm smart... so those things shouldn't be a big deal...
i leave tomorrow morning before 7... i've had a lot of ticket problems... so i hope everything will go well... i also hope they don't give me any problems with having a hard drive in my luggage... i guess we'll see
today has been very busy... i woke up to start packing... i got about 4 boxes together... one is my vcr, remote, and poetry book... another is guitar effects and computer parts... then i have one that's all books... and another with vhs tapes and dvd cases (i have the dvds in my luggage... then we went to ups to try to ship them... but like.. a 13.5 pound box would cost at least $63 dollars to ship... and that wasn't the heaviest box... so we went to the post office and sent them through there... 3-4 weeks before i get stuff though... oh well
then i came home and finished packing my bags... and that's been hard on me... just thinking, this is all i'm taking with me... i'm leaving almost everything behind... it's rough... but i need to do it... and it's been my choice... i know the risks i'm taking... and i know that i could have backed out at any point.... but i think this is the path i need to take... i've made mistakes in the past... but i don't think this is going to be another...
saying goodbye is really hard... i've never been living away from home (i've gone on a vacation without my family, but i was coming back soon)... and i'm gonna be too far to just visit occasionally... so it's gonna be really hard for me... and i know it... i'm gonna be a wreck after i say goodbye to my parents... it's gonna be one of the hardest things i've ever had to do... but it's something i have to do... and i can do it... i'm gonna need to get to bed early tonight... i've gotta get up at 4:30... but i've still got stuff to do... this is gonna be rough... but i know it's all gonna be ok, cuz i'm gonna finally be with kristin.... *sigh*
i love her so much... and she makes it all worthwhile
Friday, January 3, 2003 - 9:41:19 PM
so this is it... this is the end of the life that i've known for... well... all my life... today has been very hard on me... tomorrow will be worse... i've been crying on and off all day... but most of the time, i've held it back... it's so hard when everything i've ever known is about to change... my whole life is going to change tomorrow... and it's going to be a huge change... but, i think i'm doing the right thing by going... i've got a lot of stuff going for me there... namely kristin and piercing...
yesterday i was freaking out because i'm scared... there's a lot of things i'm not prepared for... but i talked with kristin and amiee and paige, and they all helped me through it.... i know i can handle anything that's thrown my way... i'm strong... emotional, but strong... i know i'm smart... so those things shouldn't be a big deal...
i leave tomorrow morning before 7... i've had a lot of ticket problems... so i hope everything will go well... i also hope they don't give me any problems with having a hard drive in my luggage... i guess we'll see
today has been very busy... i woke up to start packing... i got about 4 boxes together... one is my vcr, remote, and poetry book... another is guitar effects and computer parts... then i have one that's all books... and another with vhs tapes and dvd cases (i have the dvds in my luggage... then we went to ups to try to ship them... but like.. a 13.5 pound box would cost at least $63 dollars to ship... and that wasn't the heaviest box... so we went to the post office and sent them through there... 3-4 weeks before i get stuff though... oh well
then i came home and finished packing my bags... and that's been hard on me... just thinking, this is all i'm taking with me... i'm leaving almost everything behind... it's rough... but i need to do it... and it's been my choice... i know the risks i'm taking... and i know that i could have backed out at any point.... but i think this is the path i need to take... i've made mistakes in the past... but i don't think this is going to be another...
saying goodbye is really hard... i've never been living away from home (i've gone on a vacation without my family, but i was coming back soon)... and i'm gonna be too far to just visit occasionally... so it's gonna be really hard for me... and i know it... i'm gonna be a wreck after i say goodbye to my parents... it's gonna be one of the hardest things i've ever had to do... but it's something i have to do... and i can do it... i'm gonna need to get to bed early tonight... i've gotta get up at 4:30... but i've still got stuff to do... this is gonna be rough... but i know it's all gonna be ok, cuz i'm gonna finally be with kristin.... *sigh*
i love her so much... and she makes it all worthwhile