ventage/ update. Warning: maybe rather long.
okay. i've realized i'm not the prettiest girl in the world, nor the smartest, nicest, friendliest, greatest listener, sweetest talker, bestest attitude (yes, i just said bestest) and i know i'm not the greatest friend, but i try to be nice, and friendly, and a good listener, and i've been there for my friends through the hardest times of their lives. i know some of you are probably saying "bullshit, what is this girl talking about, she's the worst person in the world," or "this girl is pretty, she just doesn't see it." point is, i don't listen to a whole lot of people when they give me complements, or try to say something nice to me. want to know why? because i have gotten so many insults in the past 14 years of my life, that i don't really know what it's like to accept a complement. i am kind, and say thank-you, but i don't fully comprehend what nice thing you are trying to tell me. the song in the previous entry speaks a lot about me. i have been kicked when i am down, and i have had people try and help me back up. i probably sound like i am rambling, but you know what, this is my livejournal, where i am allowed to share my thoughts. and this is one of them.
i have seen so many beautiful people, such as some of my best friends, that don't think that highly of themselves at all, and it's so frusterating to have themselves think so low of themselves, thinking they are ugly, fat, or just not pretty at all. and you know what, it hurts me to see them think this. so, everyone is beautiful in their own way. no matter what. i promise.
anywho
despite of that, here is an overview of my day in short mode.
woke up, got online (as usual) and talked to many people, got reminded of allisons party, and had to give jacob the 411, so got his screenname (s-c-o-r-e), got a shower, and started getting ready for alli's party (costume party) so, i used my regular clothes, got new chucks (converses), and some red comb-in highlight stuff, it was so awesome, so i looked like a punk-rock chick. yes. but it was a total blast. tons of jokes. and scott was a very shady character. very shady. tons of jokes. and i became friends with a few new people!! yay! new friends!!
anna davidson is a pretty girl. :D i ♥ her. i hopefully get to see her tomorrow! yippie!
i have seen so many beautiful people, such as some of my best friends, that don't think that highly of themselves at all, and it's so frusterating to have themselves think so low of themselves, thinking they are ugly, fat, or just not pretty at all. and you know what, it hurts me to see them think this. so, everyone is beautiful in their own way. no matter what. i promise.
anywho
despite of that, here is an overview of my day in short mode.
woke up, got online (as usual) and talked to many people, got reminded of allisons party, and had to give jacob the 411, so got his screenname (s-c-o-r-e), got a shower, and started getting ready for alli's party (costume party) so, i used my regular clothes, got new chucks (converses), and some red comb-in highlight stuff, it was so awesome, so i looked like a punk-rock chick. yes. but it was a total blast. tons of jokes. and scott was a very shady character. very shady. tons of jokes. and i became friends with a few new people!! yay! new friends!!
anna davidson is a pretty girl. :D i ♥ her. i hopefully get to see her tomorrow! yippie!