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it kinda sucks watching one window of opportunity open, but at the same time watching another one close.
i've really cut down on AIM. sure i'm constantly idle, but i really don't talk much. however, after one conversation i did have the other day, as much as i understand what was said, i just couldn't help but have a feeling that kinda felt like closure wash over me. it's not particularly the way i was imagining it would go, if it had to leave at all. again, i could be over-exaggerating all of this, but i've definitely felt like i was being avoided. it even came to the point where i was going to message my "arch-nemesis" (well, he's not really my arch-nemesis... although maybe at one time in the past he could of been considered so) for a surprise visit to the aforementioned friend. then i realized that would of been a shitty thing to do on both fronts, since it might not of been appreciated or taken the way i intended it to, then i'd just end up in the shadow of my "arch-nemesis" once again. there really isn't anything i can do but watch it develop, and if this window closes on me, ian is going to be one saaaaaaad panda.
but enough of that. i've gotta go to court again on monday... but this time i'm not fighting a ticket. that's right, ian has his first jury duty call. so hopefully sometime this weekend, i'll make a run to barnes and noble and pick up a nice thick book that needs to be read, it'll give me something to do while i wait all day for them to call my number. oh, and if you make a suggestion, please no picture books, generally i can take a good joke, but tonight for some reason i feel not like myself. sorry guys.
i saw two movies in the past two days, however... i've already seen both of them. yesterday was "Big Fish" and today was "Lord of the Rings: Return of the King". random note: i just noticed 'Lord of the Rings' and "Return of the King' was a rhyme. Tonight just felt really long. I forgot to pack a jacket, and now i'm catching a cold, worsening my mood. My friend Christine fell asleep on my shoulder, and the second she did, i really had to pee. i prolly wouldn't of had to go so bad, if at all, if she didn't fall asleep. not her fault, just my brain getting back at me for all the time recently where i forced it to over-analyze situations. Lindsay and Seth both said that we looked "disgustingly cute together, and i wanted to hurl". That made my inner-child giggle a little. who knows.
i'm going to try to get some sleep, maybe i'll feel better tomorrow.
good night moon
i've really cut down on AIM. sure i'm constantly idle, but i really don't talk much. however, after one conversation i did have the other day, as much as i understand what was said, i just couldn't help but have a feeling that kinda felt like closure wash over me. it's not particularly the way i was imagining it would go, if it had to leave at all. again, i could be over-exaggerating all of this, but i've definitely felt like i was being avoided. it even came to the point where i was going to message my "arch-nemesis" (well, he's not really my arch-nemesis... although maybe at one time in the past he could of been considered so) for a surprise visit to the aforementioned friend. then i realized that would of been a shitty thing to do on both fronts, since it might not of been appreciated or taken the way i intended it to, then i'd just end up in the shadow of my "arch-nemesis" once again. there really isn't anything i can do but watch it develop, and if this window closes on me, ian is going to be one saaaaaaad panda.
but enough of that. i've gotta go to court again on monday... but this time i'm not fighting a ticket. that's right, ian has his first jury duty call. so hopefully sometime this weekend, i'll make a run to barnes and noble and pick up a nice thick book that needs to be read, it'll give me something to do while i wait all day for them to call my number. oh, and if you make a suggestion, please no picture books, generally i can take a good joke, but tonight for some reason i feel not like myself. sorry guys.
i saw two movies in the past two days, however... i've already seen both of them. yesterday was "Big Fish" and today was "Lord of the Rings: Return of the King". random note: i just noticed 'Lord of the Rings' and "Return of the King' was a rhyme. Tonight just felt really long. I forgot to pack a jacket, and now i'm catching a cold, worsening my mood. My friend Christine fell asleep on my shoulder, and the second she did, i really had to pee. i prolly wouldn't of had to go so bad, if at all, if she didn't fall asleep. not her fault, just my brain getting back at me for all the time recently where i forced it to over-analyze situations. Lindsay and Seth both said that we looked "disgustingly cute together, and i wanted to hurl". That made my inner-child giggle a little. who knows.
i'm going to try to get some sleep, maybe i'll feel better tomorrow.
good night moon