hrm... it's been odd here in my head lately...
I think it's because I've been focusing a lot more on the physical and temporal than I have in a long time.
That's mainly been brought on by the current financial stress and need to buckle down and figure out some career stuff--things very rooted in the here and now. And there is progress going on there, so panic should be abated.
But that change in focus has had some side effects.
Those Metaphysical Monday bits I've been writing haven't been flowing as smoothly as I anticipated. I'm just not in that mind set as much as I thought I would be. It's too ethereal and far reaching to exist fully in the locked-down to general consensus reality world I'm having to deal with. That and I'm just really out of practice with most things metaphysical that aren't completely automatic (and I've even lost sight of a lot of the details of the things that had become automatic for me). I'm toying with the idea of putting them on hiatus for a while--not totally dropping the metaphysical angle, but not locking in a set schedule for writing about it. In the past, that's actually worked better at times. Still thinking about it, though.
The Hump Day Crush stuff, however, has been pretty free flowing. I kind of expected that, anyway, as I'm always happy to talk about relationship stuff with people. The real side effect, though, is the resurgence of all sorts of physical wants that I had happily put behind me for a long time.
Lately I've been longing more than usual for various forms of companionship (not necessarily sexual, mind you). While that is a more common thing in the winter (I blame the cold weather), this time around it seems to be compounded by the state of the world and numerous events going on involving me and/or friends of mine.
Could also have to be that the beginning of this month marked the start of year 8 being completely single. Haven't even been on a real date since 1999 (let alone done anything else).
This is neither a good nor a bad thing, it simple is. I find it an interesting (though, at times, slightly annoying and inconvenient) thing.
Makes me wonder if I'm about to kick on up to a different cycle of stuff.
It would be nice to be able to afford a good date if I were to ask someone on one.
I'm just glad that I'm finally back in an area where there are a good number of romantic relationship prospects. If this had happened when I was back up in New York living in my home town, I would have been seriously out of luck.
Hump Day Crush coming your way in time for lunch.
That's mainly been brought on by the current financial stress and need to buckle down and figure out some career stuff--things very rooted in the here and now. And there is progress going on there, so panic should be abated.
But that change in focus has had some side effects.
Those Metaphysical Monday bits I've been writing haven't been flowing as smoothly as I anticipated. I'm just not in that mind set as much as I thought I would be. It's too ethereal and far reaching to exist fully in the locked-down to general consensus reality world I'm having to deal with. That and I'm just really out of practice with most things metaphysical that aren't completely automatic (and I've even lost sight of a lot of the details of the things that had become automatic for me). I'm toying with the idea of putting them on hiatus for a while--not totally dropping the metaphysical angle, but not locking in a set schedule for writing about it. In the past, that's actually worked better at times. Still thinking about it, though.
The Hump Day Crush stuff, however, has been pretty free flowing. I kind of expected that, anyway, as I'm always happy to talk about relationship stuff with people. The real side effect, though, is the resurgence of all sorts of physical wants that I had happily put behind me for a long time.
Lately I've been longing more than usual for various forms of companionship (not necessarily sexual, mind you). While that is a more common thing in the winter (I blame the cold weather), this time around it seems to be compounded by the state of the world and numerous events going on involving me and/or friends of mine.
Could also have to be that the beginning of this month marked the start of year 8 being completely single. Haven't even been on a real date since 1999 (let alone done anything else).
This is neither a good nor a bad thing, it simple is. I find it an interesting (though, at times, slightly annoying and inconvenient) thing.
Makes me wonder if I'm about to kick on up to a different cycle of stuff.
It would be nice to be able to afford a good date if I were to ask someone on one.
I'm just glad that I'm finally back in an area where there are a good number of romantic relationship prospects. If this had happened when I was back up in New York living in my home town, I would have been seriously out of luck.
Hump Day Crush coming your way in time for lunch.