I wonder who is going to read this?!
So I wrote an entry last night getting my feelings out before I exploded, I said a lot of things I didn't want all of "the world" to know, so I deleted it today as soon as I could...but I got to it too late because Paul got questioned all day by...um...people if we were still together (which was the main subject of that entry). Like those people care?! HA! It's just news for them to gossip about for a few hours till something else happens. Now I'm not saying I didn't expect less from it all, but I just wish we would be left alone. I understand that yes, I do write about my life and things happening to me in my LIVEjournal which gives anyone the right to read it, but why do they HAVE to read it and then discuss it with eachother? It's not like they honestly deeply care. The ones that do care have stuck by our side through it all from the very beginning. They were worried all the time and asked if everything was alright for everything, from me having to go to the hospital to me and Paul having problems. well anywayz when Paul told me the questions he was asked and by who they were asked by I was upset and really wanted to cuss people out, but it's not something I need to really stress myself out over, I understand that these little problems are always gonna happen and I've got to look at them as pebbles in the road rather than huge rocks or else I'll trip and fall over each one that comes up. and I mean come on, it would be HUGE news to spread around that Paul and Brandy are having a baby together and they are broken up!!! It's so Maury!! However it would be better if it was the truth. Hey, maybe I'm wrong about it all, and maybe they really do care about Paul and me.(is that expecting too much?) Maybe Paul and I should invite them to our baby shower! lol! well I was pissed about it all, but I did put myself into the situation, and I've got to handle it in a better manor that what I would have a long time ago. And hey if it was just something for everyone to gossip about and they want more to gossip about maybe I'll stop by and show everyone my stomach and the pictures of the baby, and...yea! lol! it's happening, and I can't hide from it, so...."if I've got it FLAUNT IT!" lol!