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I can't get a person out of my mind for the life of me, i can't stop thinking about her, it worries me to have this... my last shred of emotions here... is of someone i never wanted... yet i can't help but miss her... it pains me to think of it.. it almost makes me sick...
the fact i let someone in so close and never cut the strings, they will be the death of me i know... just because of the way i am... times are harsh which is nothing new, but this person is my only source of light now...
she has those qualities i look for within a person, but it's wrong in my view, but lately my view has been clouded to visions of past, which i can not shake...
between her and the past, things are grim... i wish i could clear my mind, and not look back... not to think of the past, and not to think of her...
as fun as people claim me to be, you're view of me is what i want you to see. i myself personally are not what i seem to be... thoughts of those i want and yet i will not go for, past memories that haunt, which i refuse to let go of, tortured soul n mind is present..
family now is no help, they are only making it worse, things need to change, i need to leave once again, disappear is the best option, to which i think i'll travel, not sure when, but people will know...
the one i think of lately, and i can't get out of my mind and heart, will never know who she is, nor how i feel... she'll be clueless to the ordeal...
when i decide to leave only a few will know, they will also be blessed enough to see myself once more... when i return it'll be a secret even fewer shall know..
the fact i let someone in so close and never cut the strings, they will be the death of me i know... just because of the way i am... times are harsh which is nothing new, but this person is my only source of light now...
she has those qualities i look for within a person, but it's wrong in my view, but lately my view has been clouded to visions of past, which i can not shake...
between her and the past, things are grim... i wish i could clear my mind, and not look back... not to think of the past, and not to think of her...
as fun as people claim me to be, you're view of me is what i want you to see. i myself personally are not what i seem to be... thoughts of those i want and yet i will not go for, past memories that haunt, which i refuse to let go of, tortured soul n mind is present..
family now is no help, they are only making it worse, things need to change, i need to leave once again, disappear is the best option, to which i think i'll travel, not sure when, but people will know...
the one i think of lately, and i can't get out of my mind and heart, will never know who she is, nor how i feel... she'll be clueless to the ordeal...
when i decide to leave only a few will know, they will also be blessed enough to see myself once more... when i return it'll be a secret even fewer shall know..