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I feel as though someone has died or I have just finished living a dozen lifetimes. I feel so tired, so out of energy, so lost, so dazed, so confused.
I barely even noticed I was at work tonight. Come to think of it I did every performance for the entire night without any assistance whatsoever and with more productivity than ever before tonight.
And it didn’t do shit for me.
I spent most of the night feeling hollow inside and pacing around the servers in a figure eight with so many thoughts of very little variation it seems daunting to consider reliving the experience, and honestly I know I will.
I know I will as soon as tomorrow. There is no joy in my newfound career for me anymore and it was such a short-lived honeymoon of sorts. Of course I realize that is of no fault to the job, it’s because of my personal life - don’t need anyone to point that brain buster out for me.
I was at a loss for words all day, I’ve barely said anything all night long. Now, when no one is around, I have more words than I can use and only infomercials and sleeping pets to hear me beg and plead for answers I unfortunately just don’t have.
I wish something mind numbing was on that could have a shot at taking me away like a new South Park or Simpsons or even Family Guy.
But no, just this idiot with spray on hair.
And somehow it’s fitting that’s all I got.
I barely even noticed I was at work tonight. Come to think of it I did every performance for the entire night without any assistance whatsoever and with more productivity than ever before tonight.
And it didn’t do shit for me.
I spent most of the night feeling hollow inside and pacing around the servers in a figure eight with so many thoughts of very little variation it seems daunting to consider reliving the experience, and honestly I know I will.
I know I will as soon as tomorrow. There is no joy in my newfound career for me anymore and it was such a short-lived honeymoon of sorts. Of course I realize that is of no fault to the job, it’s because of my personal life - don’t need anyone to point that brain buster out for me.
I was at a loss for words all day, I’ve barely said anything all night long. Now, when no one is around, I have more words than I can use and only infomercials and sleeping pets to hear me beg and plead for answers I unfortunately just don’t have.
I wish something mind numbing was on that could have a shot at taking me away like a new South Park or Simpsons or even Family Guy.
But no, just this idiot with spray on hair.
And somehow it’s fitting that’s all I got.